it's beginning to feel a lot like christmas

i love Christmas. its definitely my favourite celebration of the year, beats birthdays. i dont know why, i just like the thought of everyone sharing all the presents and being with your family :) its great, pure greatness. 

as you may have noticed, im going skiing on boxing day. therefore, i realise im not entitled to tones of presents as i usually am. so ive had to cut down my Christmas list :( here is it...

- Superdry coat

- someday perfume by justin bieber :P

- just dance 3 (wii)

- itunes voucher

- the inbetweeners movie <-- awesome film !

- JLS's new CD (jukebox)

- 2012 JLS calendar

- boy posters... to add to my lovely collection on my wall

- cooking/recipe books

- cooking equipment

^ thats what ive got SO far. i guarentee i will find more stuff i would like to add :)

ahh i love christmas! :') ... speaking of Christmas ...

38 DAYS, 19 HOURS, 3 MINUTES, 2O SECONDS :D:D

Swimming gala failness

I originally didnt even want to do the swimming gala. I went and saw the head of pe to ask what it was about and be automatically put my name down. Great.

I was put into 25m breast stroke, 50m breast stroke, mealdy relay and freestyle relay. I didn't want to do those races but I got on with it. We got given the choice to either stand on the diving block or start from in the pool. Everyone used the block, except me. I didn't want to risk belly flopping and completely messing all of the races up. So there I was, casually being the only one starting in the pool. So embarrassing! To say the least. It was obvious from the first race that the divers gained half the length just from the dive. So I didn't do too bad considering I had to catch up the push which I didn't have. However, I still started from the pool for the rest of the races. I'm so clever.

Terrible event. BUT luckily we got given drinks and doughnuts afterwards :D it's great going to a rich school.

Macaulay Culkin got into drugs? :O

i loved the home alone series when i was younger. and i quite honestly still watch them occasionally. Macaulay Culkin (Kevin from home alone) got into drugs at the age of 24! seeing as he is now 31, i am clearly very late on this news.


He was caught with marijuana and dangerous substances of Xanax and sleeping pills. he began taking Xanax first. he blamed the usage of this on his anxiety and his dad who FORCED him to work as a 'star child'. he then got hooked on the drug and began smoking marijuana. BAD IDEA!!

^^^ :(

he couldn't cope with the anxiety. that's understandable, right? he doesn't do any form of drug NOW and is married to someone called 'Rachel Miner'. so his life is basically back to normal and hes off the drugs. all good :) plus, he was only in jail for four hours. however, i was upset when i found out :( but life can now move on :D

i personally don't think smoking marijuana a few times and taking Xanax can be classed as a 'drug addict'. he didn't do it very long, he soon got off the drugs. however, i guess you could argue that smoking marijuana would be safe to say you take drugs. but i disagree. so many people take drugs now-er days. i predict 65% of my school have at least tried some form of drugs before. you cant get in or out of school without being asked to buy some. im sure Macaulay Culkin regrets it though. most people would. 

Pangbourne 3k time trials

having a sleepover on Friday night was definitely not a good idea. however, saying that, i wouldn't of been able to sleep if Emily wasnt there. this was because we had just watch paranormal activity 3 and i was going to be home alone -.-

we got back to my house after the cinema at about 12am. we then watched films until we couldn't stay awake any longer. this was at about 3am.

we then had to get up at 9.45 to go and row at Pangbourne. we were completely shattered when we first woke up. within half an hour we were up and began getting dressed. we then walked over to tesco express to buy food and drinks for the whole day.

it was a 3k row. i generally thought we would do terrible. it sounded so far.

i needed a wee just as we were about to go and get in our boat. from my experience in rowing, i know that needing a wee in a race effects it HUGELY! i had to go. i dragged Lizzie all the way down to the car back, where the toilets were. they was a HUGE que. she said i had no time to go. she then dragged me all the way back. i searched for a bush on the way back, so i could at least just go in a bush. there was none. just grass. i then went and told my mum that i really needed to go. she said she would go and ask if i could skip the que. i ended up just going in this bush, where everyone could see, where cars drove passed. how embarrassing.

we had to first row 3k up to the start, moving at about 2mph, if that. we had to que all the way up, it wasn't ordered and no one knew what was going on. we just went with the flow. i was honestly so cold whilst we were waiting. i was told to take my jumper off about 40 minutes before we even began our race. i was possibly the coldest i have ever been. my hands went orange and purple, i struggled to move them. it was not a good time to feel cold.

we finally started our race. boyyy, it went quickly! i found it sooooo much easier than the 1500. that doesn't even make sense. it was definitely my favourite race i have ever done, so far. we ended up coming second :( we always seem to come second nower-days. but i cant complain, im satisfied with coming second :)

PARANORMAL ACTIVITY 3 IS AMAZING!

it was amazing. that's pretty much the only word to describe it.

don't get me wrong, it was scary. really rather incredibly scary. but it was soo good at the same time. loads of it made you jump, i generally thought i was going to have a heart attack. then when it got to the night bits you knew something scary was going to happen.

Emily and i were cuddling up to each other. still watching, just using each other as comfort. whilst Montanna was texting for ALL of it and kept asking us what was happening.

its generally a great film - much better than the first and second ones. i recommend going to see it - im definitely going to buy it on DVD! :)

theres no reason why things from books cant happen in reality, youve just got to have the confidence.

do you ever look at someone and think 'mmmm, he (or she) is yummmmyyy'? i do, all the time. i always want to just walk up to a hot looking boy, who also looks kind and caring, and introduce myself. one part of me says i should just go for it, whilst the other side reminds me that they may have a girlfriend and that would be hugely awkward. sadly, the negative out weighs the positive :(

i think i have read too many books. boys are always so good looking, charming, caring, kind, loving and pretty much what every girl would love to have, in books. but in reality, there is 99.9999% of finding a boy like that. the even worse part of this is, the odd boy that you do find with all those qualities is more often than not dating a complete slut. which just goes back to it being very hard to find such a dreamy boy. if they date a slut, that clearly means that looks mean a lot to them. most sluts are slags, most slags are whores, most whores are horrible people.so make that 99.99999% of finding a boy which we could descirbe as 'perfect.'

im going to go up to a fit boy at the UV foam party, and just go for it! who cares if they have a girlfriend? im not suggesting to get off with them or start dating them.

IMPORTANT:
1, im going to frankie & bennys for dinner in 3 hours. we are going to say its our friends birthday and take a cake in, when its really not.
2, im seeing paranormal activity 3 after weve eaten. so excited :) ill update you with how that goes on... sunday.
3, 50 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS
4, 51 DAYS UNTIL I GO SKIING
5, my dog's teeth are falling out :( im not joking.  pooor little thing.

schooool photos

ive never liked school photos. however, i normally love having my photo taken. just not school ones. i have come to the conclusion to just blame it all on the school photographer. they are horrible, really freakily horrible. they have really yellow teeth which are all wonky. they definitely aren't the most attractive people on earth. its not just there appearance that gets to me (in the nicest possible way), its their personality that goes with it. such weird humans. they honestly look like they have been smoking since they could function their brains properly and have been taking class A drugs. i know this sounds cruel, but they really are this awful.

^^ there's my photo -.- ^^

oh dear, right? well actually, saying that, its a lot better than all of my other year ones. i really cant smile to save my life... as you can see. such a fake smile i had to put on. obviously i can smile, just in photos smiling doesnt really work out for me. 

now my parents have about 20 copies of this because it came in a deal which they stupidly bought. -.-

IMPORTANT:

1, im seeing paranormal activity 3 tomorrow at the cinemaa.

2, 51 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!!!

3, 52 DAYS UNTIL I GO SKIING!

4, ive got rowing time trials on saturday :(

5, i did nearly 3 hours of ergos today, therefore im tired. THEREFORE, im going to go and have a nap.

tooooodlessss

homee-lonneee-lonesss

i love being home alone. i really do. i sometimes just sing as loud as i can, as i dance around the house like a three year old. its much more fun when im alone. i dont have to act grown up or mature. i get to be my own childish self, with no one there to judge me. you see, im definitely not grown up or mature. i just act like i am when im out. but not at school. nooooo. everyone at school knows how immaturely hyper active i am. school just makes me that happy :)

so if you ever get a moment when your alone, with no one to judge you. just sing, shout and dance around like you have nothing to worry about. its great for depression and stress.


GOT TO GO RUN AROUND THE HOUSE BEFORE MY FAM-A-LAMA GET HOME. AHHHHH :D

writing in past tense gives it effect? does this not just sound like iv'e risen from the dead to write it...?

It was painful. Having a black, hairy, poisonous spider crawling up you throat-like-painful. The cold, Christmas, frosty weather was definitely not helping the situation. Shivering with frostbite, i took another attempt to cough. The pain turning into agony, the spider turning into a tarantula, and the cold wind turning into icy snow each time. Just from one little cough i found myself catching my breath, hoping it was just a little cold, nothing serious. I felt my body give in as all my feelings disappeared. I heard my mum running up the stairs, screaming to get to me quick enough. My eyes closed.

^false! im not dead :) i was told to write in the past tense and start and end with a simple sentence, making the middle sentences longer. this is written a little depressingly, you may think, it may explain why it is poorly written... but theres the rough copy. 

speak soooon x