ICE CREAM SODA:D

i couldnt sleep last night. AGAIN. but this wasnt because i thought there was some murderer downstairs waiting to kill me. no, this was because i heard a rat. and there is nothing i fear more than rats. i dont mind mice but rats... AHHHH!

i got into bed at like 1am, only to hear the sound of a rat scratching. i knew it was a rat because thats what my hamster used to do and rats are similar to hamsters, if you think about it. so i waited to see if i could hear it again. suprisingly, i could. i reached over to get my phone from the bedside table so i could but the torch on, worrying it could be under my bed. i searched the whole of the room, there was nothing. i then heard it again but could not work out where it was coming from. i then heard it outside my room. so i walked out of my room, onto the landing and waited for a while. i heard it again. i then tip toed into my mummys room to wake her up. that was how scared i was, i NEVER wake my mum up. she then came to investigate, by this time the rat had stopped. she then said there was nothing there and to just go to sleep. i text her saying i could hear it again. so she then came and layed in my bed, the other end. i was just texting and on my ds. the scratching noise had completley stopped. she was starting to fall asleep so i gave her a little nudge and she left. the noise was not heard again. YAY:)



IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1. i tried my first EVER ice cream soda yesterday. was amazing!
2. im looking after my next door neighbours cat because they have gone away. im actually starting to fall in love with it. i want a cat:(. i love the smell of the cat food!!:D
3. we are clearing out our attic since we are doing a car boot sale tomorrow:)

moneeyy :D

so last week i decided i would count all my money out because i had to put it all towards my new bike. it came out to £120. on monday i then decided i wanted to save all my money until im 18 so i can go away to ibiza, therefore not buying the bike. tuesday i then said i was definitley going to buy a camcorder so bumcheek and i can do some filming, forgetting about the bike and holiday. yesterday i bought the camcorder and now ive packed it all up again and am planning to take it back tomorrow. i want my money back to save. i figured a camcorder isnt really what i want.

yes, i change my mind quickly. but i have set up a new bank account where i can put money in and save. i am going to use my OTHER bank account to go shopping and stuff. i have like three bank accounts, it gets very confusing.

who knows what im going to ask for for christmas. at the minute i feel as though i dont really want anything but money:)

speaakkk sooon x

i dont recommend putting pva glue on your face...

i should have believed the people that said 'not everything on the internet is true'. my argument of disagreement was 'why would someone go through the effort of putting it on the internet if it was not true?' well i think i prooved myself wrong yesterday.

i had seen a youtube video on how to get rid of blackheads REAL quick. i have no idea why i was watching that. it said first to put a warm flannel over the area, then to put a thin layer of pva glue over. once dried, peel off. this was meant to peel all the nasty stuff off your skin, including the blackheads.

i perswaded my mum to buy me some pva glue. after having a long debate as to why i needed it. i came up with 'i just do'. she totally bought it:) however, she did burst out laughing when i walked downstairs with pva glue on my face. i got the feeling i had put too much on! she started going on about how she could have just given me a facial, shes a beauty therapist you see.

anyway, i left it for about 10 minutes to dry. soon realising it wasnt coming off my face. it began to get incredibly intchy. so after half an hour of constant attempt of getting it off, i came to my senses and decided to try a make up wipe. yeah, it came off pretty much straight away. i was very disappointed to find it had not made my skin better, but only worse!!

ughhhhh!!!

here is only a BIT of my life goals list :)

1.       Fly an aeroplane of some sort.

2.       Go in a cage in the sea with the great white sharks coming right up to you.

3.       Go to new York.

4.       Fly on a plane with no friends or family.

5.       Book a holiday.

6.       Raise a family.

7.       Film a movie.

8.       Starr in a movie.

9.       Fall in love.

10.   Go away for my 18^th.

11.   Climb a mountain.

12.   Win a rowing regatta.

13.   Learn to drive.

14.   Buy/rent a house/flat.

15.   Get married.

16.   Meet someone famous.

17.   Make the worlds biggest oreo.

18.   Break a world record.

19.   Get a paper round.

20.   Meet zac efron.

21.   Visit the moon (very unlikely)

22.   Ab-sail down a cliff.

23.   Travel the world.

24.   Get a job

NOTE: THESE ARE IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER.

dentists scare the teeth out of me !;D

so today was the day i had to go to the dentist for a check up. i am so scared of the dentist its unbelievable. i had been dreading the day. theres nothing wrong with my actual dentist, its the thought of having fillings or having to have drills in my mouth or have my teeth scratched or.. or... or something like that.

my brother is such a lucky sod. he NEVER brushes his teeth, im not even joking. NEVER. yet, he still never has fillings and ALWAYS has perfect teeth. i on the other hand, ALWAYS brush my teeth and im the one who always has to have fillings. its apparently because i have really sensitive teeth. not sure why. my brother has always been the luckier one, he can eat, not do ANY exercise at all and still NOT put on ANY weight. im the complete opposite. i actually sometimes wonder if he is even my brother, we have absolutely nothing in common.

for my whole life (since ive been going to the dentist) i have always had my mum sat in the room with me. however, today she was with the hygienist whislt lee and i got our teeth checked. my brother didnt even go in with me. i was very nervous at first but then he put some music on and it seemed to relax me. because we go to a private dentist, there is an incredible view in front of you whilst having your teeth checked. that also took  my mind off things.

anyway, i went for this check up today. i thought i was going to have to have a filling because i have been having really bad tooth ache. anyhoo, i have to have a filling :( suprise suprise. so unfair! however i did get told my teeth are all good appart from that, which i dont often get told. i normally have something wrong with them.

so i have to go back for my filling a week on friday. until then, i have to have an extremeley painful tooth ache. .... ouchh... :'(!!

factfile twoo :)

16. I am HUGLEY empathetic. I may not show it but believe me I am.

17. I am known to have a wild imagination.

18. I am very, very independent.

19. Being a teenager, as you would expect, I am very grumpy.

20. I am very questionative (don’t think that’s a word) to people who interest me.

21. my favourite tv program is most definitely the inbetweeners. I have most the episodes on dvd :L.

22. I used to be a HUGE fan of Avril Lavigne. And in all honesty I still kind of am.

23. the only thing I normally get worried about in life is about the future. Im forever worrying about the bad things which could happen, when really I should think positivelyJ

24. I used to be a tomboy.

25. im the sort of friend who will stay up all night, no matter what I have planned the next day, to give you advice or comfort you.

26. im also the type of friend who will laugh at you if you fail/hurt yourself or make a fool of yourself, however I will then help you back up and check your ok.

27. I have 4 different friend groups. And as you can imagine, getting them to all get along is a very hard challenge! I have the friends I refer to as ‘nerds’, they aren’t really but they make me work hard at school. Which is a good thing I guess. I have rowing friends. I have the ‘outside school’ friends. And I also have the friends who are just there, in another group. Im the only one who is friends with all 4 groups. Yay for me -.-

28. I have a very weird sleeping pattern. I go to sleep at like 3 in the morning then sleep in until the afternoon.

29. a rumour once went round the WHOLE school, that I smoked. And im being serious, the WHOLE school.  And just to clarify, I do NOT smoke. Ive tried it a couple of times but its not a habit.

30. I hate the thought of going back to school. Although I love school.

31. I once peed on our house roof. This was not out of choice, was a dare.

32.  I don’t have a preference of sun or rain. I love all kind of weather. I do dislike it when the rain turns my hair curly but thats life.

33. my phone once went off in assembly.

34. Sober people are not welcome at parties.

35.  im the one who, if we have all been out late and crash down at someones house, will just sleep on the floor.

36. I once got questioned by the police for looking drunk. The funny thing was that I actually wasn’t drunk! Just very hyper on red bull!!

i guess all parties are classed as good if there is food.

parties, as most experienced people would know, never seem to go to plan. the ideal party, for me, would be a party with lots of people, alcohol and a dance floor. sadly being the age my friends and i are, we are not allowed to attend one of these parties, legally at least. of course we have all attended a few and experienced the older 18 year olds getting drunk out of their mind - always funny to watch! you see, im one of the ones who at a party, you would find dancing... most probably with a drink in my hand (meaning coke, of course... ;D!)

well it was emilys party last night. obviously it wasnt MY ideal party. infact, it was the complete opposite. only six people, no alcohol and no dance floor. however, there was food. therefore i was partly satisfied. the 'party' was an eat out at my favourite restaurant, frankie & bennys, and then a sleepover at emilys. im going to regret saying this but it actually wasnt as bad as it may sound. we all managed to have a good laugh at frankie & bennys. managing to burn our tongues by licking someones dick (obviously it only burnt my tongue, because im the lucky one. and obviously it wasnt an actual dick.)

we then went back to emilys and watched horrors. a nightmare on elm street, saw 6, and the final destination are just a few examples. i love horrors, i really do. so sadly these films were a little disappointing for me. i didnt find them very scary at all! but i really quite like a nightmare on elm street:) we then played dares until silly, silly times in the morning. fortunately im not allowed to say anything that happened it dares.

we ended up getting into bed at 6ish. therefore we probably didnt go to sleep until about 7am! therefore i was not very appreciative when emilys dog came in and woke us up at 9am. -.-! i actually didnt feel overly tired when we woke up, infact none of us did. whilst everyone was getting changed... well, i wasnt. i cant even recall what i was doing. so i left her house, in my pyjamas. luckily i didnt see anyone. i then have spent the rest of the day watching episodes and episodes of the inbetweeners. so funny to see how much bad luck they have.

i also went and saw the inbetweeners movie yesterday with emily. i was very suprised we actually got in, seeing as its a 15. but we did so i cant complain:)


'1,2 freddies coming for you. 3,4 better lock your door. 5,6 grab your crucifix. 7,8 gotta stay up late. 9,10 never sleep again.' (a nightmare on elm street) awesome film ! 

aye aye, i see a hottie.

so i hadnt been swimming for weeks, maybe even months. there is no reason for this, i just never really got any time to go(although i live right next to the sports centre.) so i went yesterday. on my own. it was very fun, as you can imagine. i was in there for about 40 minutes before i decided this creepy girl had been watching my every move, therefore i exited very calmly. she looked about 15/16, maybe even older. im not going to joke, she just looked about me while i did my lengths. i did about 8-12 lengths and then had a 1 minute break then went again. she still continued to look at me. she wasnt even swimming! she was in the pool, just in the corner. she even looked at me in the shower, so i decided i would wash my hair at home. i casually left, trying ever so hard to not rasie my middle finger.

my friend, Alea (spud) stayed the night last night. i hadnt seen her since we broke up from school. we spent the whole night watching films. high school musical, is an example. we sang along, because were cool.

spud then wanted to go swimming today. we both got woken up at about 9ish from a strange noise heard outside. we then went and watched tele whilst we ate our toast. we got changed earlier than we had planned. meaning we had arrived at the sports centre at 11.10 ish. the earliest ive ever been swimming!

well, what can i say. there were sooo many hot boys. the first one we spotted looked about 14/15, we were going to go and say hey until we realised he was with his family. that was a bit of a bummer. the second guy was actually a lifeguard. he had such cute curly hair. he looked about 15/16. i was so tempted to go and meet him!! but spud said it was a bad idea. instead we just followed him around and constantly looked at him. he looked a little like harry from one direction. there was this other boy who we saw. he looked pretty fit from a distance but close up his nose was too big, we decided. he was also a lifeguard. there was a third lifeguard who was also looking very hot. but we were more interested in 'harry'. yes, we began calling him harry because he had hair just like the guy of one direction!

we decided we wanted to get 'harry's number. here are some of the plans we came with...

plan A: try and get him to come over. this failed, epicly.

plan B: pretend to drown, he would then have to come and rescue us. this sounded good until we realised we werent prepared to possibly die trying to get him.

plan C: go and ask him a pool related question. we didnt even try this as soon after thinking of it realised he would think we were incredibly dumb.

plan D: do some hand signals to get him to meet us outside after his shift. this also failed.

none of these plans sadly worked. we did, however, bump into him in the cafe. but by this point spud's mum and sisters were with us so we decided it would be hugly inappropriate to talk to strangers.

so i just got home from swimming. well i say 'just' but really i got home a few hours ago. it was tipping it down! i got so wet -.-. oh the joys of living in england. and ive have been freezing for these last few hours. ive put a jumper on now and im starting to feel a little warmer. and ive just remembered its Emilyss party tomorrow and i havent got her anything, yet.... eeepppppp

heres a little factfile... :)

1.       I have a freckle on my right thumb.

2.   I prefer baths to showers. No question about it. However baths and I just never seem to get along very well. I always over fill them, by accident. I never have enough room left in the bath to put any cold in. Therefore I have to sit in a boiling hot bath, this leads to very stressful headaches.  I also find it very weird and awkward how you’re sat in a bath. Naked. With all the bathroom objects staring at you.  Like seriously. Where’s the privacy?

3.       I’m addicted to facebook. Not even joking.

4.       I like peas and I like sweet corn but when they’re mixed together I won’t eat them.

5.       If I’m out, I always eat the food I’m given, even if I don’t like it. Because I’m delightfully polite like thatJ except if its mushrooms which I’ve been asked to eat.  That’s a step WAY too far. Hate mushrooms.

6.       I’m dyslexic. However I don’t tell many people, I just let them think I’m dumb.

7.       I am very well known for being a pyromaniac. This has a few long and winded stories behind it, which I’m not planning to share.

8.       I don’t eat breakfast. Or sometimes not even lunch or dinner. Not like in one day. I would have one meal a day, included with lots of snacks. Just because I’ve got to the age where I have to make it myself. No thanks. I would rather starve.

9.       I am actually, believe it or not, a very good girl at school. I wouldn’t say I’m a nerd, however. I’m definitely not clever enough to be classes as a nerd. But I just pretend I am at school.  I never used to be like this, year 7 and below I mean. But seeing as I’m friends with a load of nerds I have taken it into consideration that school has a huge affect on my future.

10.   I havent got a huge idea as to what I want to do for a job when im older. Now ive entered into the teens I don’t get away with the excuse ‘im going to marry someone rich’ because in reality, I cant see that happening. i do know i would like a job which includes photography and travelling. I keep changing my mind so ive come to a conclusion to just tell people ‘I don’t know’. Much easier.

11.   I am very impatient. Please note.

12.   None of my relationships EVER work out. So ive come to the decision of giving up. Not forever, just for a few years until im more mature, the boy is too and it will hopefully last.

13.   I love harry potter, all the films. My favourite is probably the deathly hollows part two. Thats just incredible.

14.   I really wish I could drive. i cycle, everywhere. Not cool.

15.   My room is always a mess. I think there are some sorts of creatures in my bedroom. They wait. Right until ive just tidied my room. Then they just go and make a complete mess. Making me give up on trying tidying it again. So not my fault.

16.   If there is no conversation, I am normally the one who attempts to get everyone talking. Very awkward. Youve been warned.

17.   I prefer the dark to light. I always sleep in the dark because then that way I cant see anything which will scare me or distract me from sleeping. I often go to sleep at silly times in the mornings, even on school nights, so I need all the sleep I can get once im in bed.  Also when im home alone I will sit in the house, with all the lights off. But this is mainly because I cant be bothered to turn them on.

this is longer than i had planned, oops.

i could soo look after myself if i lived alone :)

so yesterday bumcheek asked if i would so kindly accompany her to go and watch harry potter at the cinema. although ive already watched it, but it was so amazing i had to see it again.i had a lazy morning practising some more guitar and seeing how much weight i had lost. i then poped into the guitar shop and shortly after that i picked bumcheek up(obviously i didnt, my mum was driving). my mum, being the annoying poop she is, said i wasnt allowed to go until i had hoovered my room and the landing. we then decided we were going to be late if we just stood there and argued so went straight upstairs to hoover. well actually, bumcheek hoovered. i just watched. yes, i made my friend hoover my house. im so nice:) no, she honestly wanted to.

we did infact make it to the cinema on time. i was, to say the least, very jealous of bumcheek eating her popcorn as i sat there with a bottle of water. this weight thing is killing me !

so after a few hours back at my house we decided we would walk to the shop. £2.00 between us. yay. this did actually buy me a big carton of orange juice (which bumcheek shared with me) and bumcheek three refreshers. we then sat down on a wall, looking like hobos, while we waited for willy (kira) to arrive. she was taking forever, and i mean FOREVER. so we downed the carton of orange juice,bumcheek ate the refreshers and we decided we would run to meet her half way. this is because we decided we could do with losing some calories(obviously i decided this). well the running side of this failed, i guess you could say. we had both got a stitch within the first 10 steps. very unfit. so we walked the rest of the way. infact, we were even too lazy to walk the whole half way. therefore we just met willy at john lewis. passing by ymca, some men were looking out the window, window open. so yes, i waved. they suprisingly waved back. however shortly after this they started shouting things at us. we just smiled and waved, just like the madagascar penguins. willy then wanted a mcdonalds, so we walked the LONG way back so we could pass by mcdonalds.

bumcheek and i then had dinner as soon as we got home. pasta, i think it was. definitely wasnt as nice as the one i made. we then chilled until bumcheek went home. willy and i then thought it would be funny to go on zoosk, so i could apparently be matched up with someone. shortly after finding no one decent we decided we would go on chatroulette. some veryy veryy strange people go on that. i now see why your meant to be 18 to use it /:! but yes, we spent the next 3/4 hours on that. its funny how everyone believed that we were 20 when they could clearly see us on webcam. haha !

after watching piranah, we watched t.v until 5am.

andddd, today was another lazy day:) willy left arounf lunch time, when we were still in bed. i have apparently put on 2 pounds since yesterday :( my life is over. no im joking, its probably because ... maybe i possibly... had some sweets last night. i couldnt help it. but this is proof that i put on weight so easily!! its not fair. i also made victorian sponge cake today and im just about to cook myself some dinner, seeing my family are out. yayy

lets hope it was all in my head :)

last night was one of those nights were i was physically unable to sleep. i could have sworn i could hear noises downstairs, like doors opening and closing. everyone was asleep, however. i kept thinking of the paranormal activity films. so i choose not to make a fuss and to just simply go on the iPad for a bit. welll that worked until it started running out of battery. so then i turned it off.

i then heard my brothers door open, as you can probably imagine, i almost had a heart attack. hearing strange noises and then hear someone come out of your brothers room and walk across the landing at 2 in the morning is pretty terrifying. i waited for 'them' to leave, taking a few deep breaths as i did this. being the curious person i am i decided i would go and investigate. i got out of bed and tip toed like a ninja to my door. i opened it slowly, trying to avoid the sqeaky door noise. i had to gasp as i opened the door to find a piece of paper on the landing with some writing on it. my first thought was that it could be a death note, so yes, i stood still for a minute. i then read that it said 'DAD' at the top, meaning it was probably for my dad. i then tried to get a bit closer to read it but then my dad walked out. he seemed to look at me as though i had just killed someone. he asked if i knew what time it was, wondering why i was still awake. to make it more casual i decided explaining that there were scary noises downstairs was not a good idea, instead i told him i could not sleep and walked into the bathroom.

he then took the iPad and went downstairs. i thought then would be a good time to try and get back to sleep because someone was downstairs so i could just think that the noises were him. by this point it was about 3 because i decided to text people, suprisingly some were awake. i then got back into bed to attempt of getting to sleep. to cut things a bit shorter i FINALLY got to sleep at 4.15ish.

being ever so gratful that i had got to sleep, i was so god damn angry when the fire alarm started going off at 5. i immediatley opened my eyes like someone had just been stabbed. i just lay there for a bit to see if my mum would come in. sure enough, she did. the fire alarm went off a few months ago and i was the first room she came into because she thought i had started a fire. so she then went down to investigate. there was no fire.

so in the end i only managed to get a few hours of sleep and my alarm was set for 10am. this was because i was meant to be going out and my silly friends decided we should meet too early for my liking. so yes i was furious when they said we werent going anymore because it was raining. we live in england, what the hell do you expect!? urghh! im going back to sleep.

i must be fat. :(

ive got to that age now where im expected to make my own lunch. not dinner, luckily. but im sure ill soon have to start making dinner for everyone too. ive never been one to like home made sandwiches, there alright if there bought because they taste better. so therefore when my mum used to make my brother and i lunch to take to school, i would never actually take it or i would just give it to some of the kids who get there lunch off other people. so yes i tended to starve at school, unless bumcheek had enough money to buy me lunch aswell, which she normally did.

so im getting the feeling that im actually obese. this may sound stupid but i actual think i am. im about two stone heavier than all my friends, im heavy than my mum (so wii fit says) and wii fit even says im at risk of being obese. its not fair. i know im tall but i dont think that really makes a differance. im not exactly FAT, well not as fat as i could be, but then im definatley not skinny. so i dont understand where the weight comes from. but anyway ive decided im going to try and lose some weight.

so instead of having breakfast, well, i dont anymore. i then have lunch at 12-1ish,either cake or proper lunch. not both. too many calories otherwise. i then have to wait about 6 hours untill we have dinner. i do not have snacks inbetween or dessert. if im dying of starvation then smoothies are accepted. AND, go for a 7 mile bike ride everyday, and possibly a swim in the evening too. yep, this is my idea to losing weight.

today i made marble cake at around lunch time and had a piece of that for my lunch. for dinner i then cooked shelly pasta in cheese sauce, although i was the only one eating it. it all went pretty well. i think its actually easier to not follow a recipe because whenever ive cooked it always goes wrong, but today i didnt use any recipes and nothing went wrong. should try that more often:)

dont you dare brake the cycling rules. dork.

i had done nothing all day. except get out of bed at 12, eat some lunch, go to an appointment and pop into staples, watch a movie, play guitar and eat dinner. therefore as you can imagine, i felt incredibly lazy (no offence if this is a busy day for you ).

i told my mum that i was going to go on a bike ride and she said i should wait until she finished working and then she will show me a new bike route. fair enough, i thought. it may be embarrassing going with her but at least i would get to know a new route. well, i regreted agreeing to go with her since she walked down stairs. not to metion she was wearing MY stripey orange top, MY shorts, MY leggins and even MY shoes!! and just to make it worse, none of it matched. she knew how stupid she looked. i think she just did it to embarrass me even more. regreting deciding to go with her i got down her bike and put the wheel on it, and also got mine down.

i think she overestimated herself a little. because as we rode up all the hills and even on the flat surface she seemed to be going at 1mile per hour, if that. i decided i would stop at the top of every hilly bit to check she was ok, because im nice like that. but that changed on the last hill. i just went off without her. but its ok, she told me i should. she kept returning to the excuse that she had been on a long run this morning and also that she was a runner not a cycler. i just laughed.

 she even broke some of the cycling rules. number 1, dont embarrass other people or yourself whilst cycling. number 2, do NOT talk unless it has something to do with directions. 3, try to avoid your bike making funny, annoying noises. 4, press the button at pedestrian crossings, instead of guessing when to cross roads. and number 5, alway cycle prepared. infact, she broke ALL these rules. to make it even worse, she starting singing the teletubbies theme song. one word, emarrassing. despite being furious at her, i just had to laugh in the end.

so once we FINALLY arrived back home, we looked at how many miles we had done. 7 miles it came to. you cant call me lazy now. i did learn one thing from today. NEVER, do take my mum on a bike ride. ever.

ill turn the lights off myself, shall i?

so i was with bumcheek (sophie) and her twin sister, izzy, again today. i stayed the night at hers. we spent the evening playing guitar, learning new songs. we did that for hours! literally. i took my guitar over at 7pm and we didnt stop playing untill 9-10. we then stayed up all night watching family guy and eating, you could probably guess our age from this.

we got woken up by her little sister at about 10.45am. i wasnt happy. eating golden nuggets we searched to find something entertaining to watch on tv. there was nothing. this lead to us having a dance off on just dance on the wii. of course, i won:).

we then decided we were relatively bored. with a quick glance at the empire cinema website to check what was on, we got bumcheek's mum to drive us there. we bought a large portion of salted popcorn and went into the screen we were given. we were quite late but thats very usual for us. so therefore, the film had started within minutes of us sitting down. we were watching zookeeper. we didnt really have a choice because of the age restrictions. so the film started, all going well. except the lights hadnt been turned off. everyone was wondering why this was. i did not want this to ruin the fim. so yes, I got outvoted to get out my seat, run down the cinema stairs and turn the lights off. not being happy that i was missing the film i ran down, relatively quickly. job done. the awkward part was that the man came in seconds just after i had switched them off and was wondering why they were already off. i was already back in my seat by this point so it was all good. stupid people. cant watch a movie with lights on. 

as i got dropped off this evening, bumcheek ran up to my room to put my guitar down. she immidatley asked what had happened to my room. i didnt know what she was talking about, other than it might be a mess. i ran up to see my WHOLE room had been rearranged and tidied. too tidy for my liking. silly parents. apparently they sorted out my room because i had ants in it. dont think thats good. oh well, i cant complain - ive got a clean room, for once!:)

ive overcome my fear of wasps, black cats and also heights !

seeing as im getting older now, i thought it was time i faced some of my fears. the three main ones (actually there were four but i havent been able to conquer the last one. spiders). i have always had a problem with wasps. i always had to run if one came near me, looking like a idiot. until i came back from spain. you would probably already know but there are loads of wasps in spain. meaning i absolutely hated it when we ate outside (everyday.) on holiday, however, my cousin was lecturing my other cousin about wasps and why not to be scared of them. he said 'imagine your a wasp. if you were flying past someone and they made a fuss, you would keep flying past them because you would find it funny to watch them run. if you just sit still, the wasp will fly past because it thinks your no fun.' so i decided i would try it and he was right. so from that day i have conquered my fear of wasps.

black cats (not being racist.) i had no idea why they scared me. i guess ive heard too many silly stories about them. one of my friends, whos house i spend a lot of time at, has three black cats. so i guess ive just learnt that they arent bad and i dont have a problem with them anymore.

and finally, heights. i always used to tell people i had a fear of heights, when asked. the truth is, i dont actually think ive ever been afraid of heights. if i can go in planes, go down seriously high watertubes, go to go ape, go on roller coasters, and go parasailing, then clearly heights are no problem for me. so i cant really say ive conquered this fear because it never was actually a fear. it was all in my head.

at least its a start. :)

lets go for a bike ride, shall we?

i hadnt seen my best friend since we broke up for the holidays, so we decided today was the day we should meet up. to cut a long story short, we went for a bike ride... after a long discussion of what we should do. i woke up to find myself already arguing with my mum. i am definatley not a morning person, therefore i get very annoyed at people who are happy in the mornings, ie my mum. she then thought she could but her nose into my day plans and change everything. i was not happy. she said i was not allowed to cycle to marlow, to see my friend, because they were going out. being the argumentative person i am, i argued my point and agreed that i would cycle down and get a lift home later.

the bike ride which sophie took me on  itself was rather eventful. not only did the bike route be a LOT longer than we had expected but we also got lost a few times, saw a huge giant which lead to sophie looking behind at me and almost crashing, and it also began to rain. not to mention that by the time we got to the river, we were both starving hungry. we dug out our money to find we only had one pound between us, that being all mine. i cant talk from experiance but only from common sense that one pound isnt enough to feed two hungry bellys. we looked at the ice cream 'menu' to find there was one ice cream being £1. yes we bought it, and yes we shared it between us.

sophie then thought it would be funny to take me to the place when she had seen a cat get hit by a car and then watch it die. there was blood all over the road. wasnt pretty.

of course we did other things during the time i spent at her house, ie: made cakes, watched three movies (gnomeo and juliet, tangled and harry potter and the goblet of fire), ate soup. the usual stuff. was a lovley way to spend my saturday.