im so generous.

playing netball for an hour after a hard days work at school is not necessary. i was tired and grumpy. however, i decided i would go because i didnt want to be lazy. there was only like 6 of us from year 9 and two people from year 10. we did some reaction skills and then got into some mini matches, dropping out some positions. my team won, obviously.

because im such a nice and generous person, i decided i would give up MY position for someone else. literally EVERYONE wanted to be goal attack today. so i decided i would back out and be wing defense even though this is like the 3rd week ive given up MY position!! grrrr. why am i so nice? ;P


IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1, ive decided to make Chris lasagna and send it to him in the post. this is because he apparently eats microwave lasagna. who does that? SERIOUSLY? ;)
2, ive ordered my ticket to go to the Halloween rave. dont think ive mentioned this? its basically another party where the foam party was. i will probably be attending all these parties now :L its Halloween themed, so, alea and i have decided to go as dead faires. HAHA.
3, IM FINALLY ON TOP OF ALL MY HOMEWORK.
4, im hopefully going to get my rowing machine after all these months of waiting.


D:

did i really just put that on the internet?

urghh, i HATE monday mornings. well, mondays in general. im always so tired and very unenthusiastic. but i forced myself to get out of bed .

i walked into form, later than wanted, as usual. i have the strictest teacher in the whole school as my form tutor. lucky me, right? well this new girl joined today. her name is marie, its not pronounced mary, its like MAARRIEEEE. i have been picked to be her mentor as she is in all of my classes. shes quite nice but INCREDIBLY quiet. which isnt surprising. i know more about her than others, and getting her to talk is a challenge...!... shes lived in paris her whole life but she has moved into marlow (didnt understand why) and joined my school, obviously. she does NOT have facebook. shes very short (no offence) ... thats about all i know, but its actually a lot compared to the others! our class isnt very good with new people, they tend to be rather mean. but i was very friendly to her :) she sat with us at break and lunch... which the boys arent going to like when they find out tomorrow. feel very sorry for her though...

ONE HOUR LATER:
Montanna, Lucy, Emily, Holly (and natalie and daniella, but we dont like them /:) AND ME walked into town after school before rowing at 5. we always do that. we go and sit in starbucks, they go and buy sweets from sainsbury and then we walk down to the river.

we were sat down at the river today and this boy in year 11 decided he would come down so he could see Montanna. he fancies her. how sad!! he even admitted it. so they hugged and he said he wanted to kiss her. us, being the lovely friends we are decided we would try and persuade her to kiss him. it didnt work. we then asked him what he wanted to do to her, it went like this...

Lucy: hug?!
Emily: kiss?!
Lucy: MORE THAN A KISS?!
me: FINGER HER?

i clearly did not think before i said it. it kind of slipped out, by accident. he laughed and we started talking about how he said he wanted to be the first person to finger her, ew gross. lucy then suggested he did it then but he said, and i quote 'no man, i dont have to do it now' and we were like 'so your going to do it tomorrow :O?' and he was like 'no, it could be next year'. so montanna could be getting fingered next year, which would make her 14. haha, bless.

cannot believe i just wrote this on the internet. ahh well.. ;P

a QUICK update of my weekend...

this is going to have to be quick as i have tones of homework and have had a very busy weekend so i shall write in very little detail.

FRIDAY: my friend, Kira, came round a few hours after school to get ready for the foam party. it took us a decent few hours to actually decide on an outfit. we then got dropped down there. IT WAS AMAZING. all i can say :) we met loads of people and hung with some of our other friends. definitely going to go again. we then left the party at 12 and went home and watched some episodes of the inbetweeners.

SATURDAY: Kira and i woke up shockingly early for some reason. we ate some breakfast, then got dressed and walked to the shop to buy some sweets. after buying the sweets, we then walked to the park and sat there for a while. i then walked Kira to my favourite field. its an amazing field. it overlooks the whole of high wycombe, its beautiful. i often go there on my own. pikachu then said she was going to come and meet us there. once she came we then walked back to my house and Kira got her stuff packed whilst i packed my bag for swimming. Kira got picked up and Pikachu and i walked over to the sports centre to meet Alea and the boys to go swimming. swimming was alright, quite boring. we then went and sat in the cafe and bought some fooooooood. we were going to play 7 minutes in heaven but we ran out of time.

SUNDAY (today): i woke up at 7am today. 7am! because i went rowing. Emily arrived at my door pretty early, ready for my mum to drop us both down. we picked up montanna on the way. i didnt even row. i was cox (the person who steers the boat). i actually, surprisingly, didnt crash. i was meant to be going back to my friends house, HOLLY. however, i was unsure as she had only mentioned it. my mum said to go to hollys or get a lift back with emily. by the time i waited for Holly, emily had already left. Holly then said bye to me. so i was stood there thinking 'how the hell am i going to get home? its too far to walk.' so i phoned my mum and i had to walk into the high street and wait, what felt like forever, until she came and picked me up.i then came home, ate, did some homework, watched some tele. i also made an apple crumble. the cooking apples had gone mouldy so i had to walk to the tree outside my house to pick some more. oh, and i also prepared dinner :) and now ive got to gooo....

BEFORE THE FOAM...

AFTER.

was GREAT fun!!! x

foam foam foam FOAMMM

the foam party is tomorrow evening. and ive gotta say, im ratthhherrrr excited :D these parties are always so much fun !

EVEN better news.... ive got loads of people who im going with :) because, if you remember, i wrote a few weeks ago or so saying how everyone thought it was going to be shit. HA, yay. i have actually decided to go as a slut. but dont judge me, cause im not a slut. haha. but why not, eh? thats what i say. youll see what i mean when i add a photo tomorrowww.


IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1, i saw steve redgrave today :)
2, ive had 10 pieces of homework so far this week. and i still have tomorrow. fml.
3, i go back to spain in 4 weeks or so!! :D
4, you know what i was saying yesterday, about how i wanted to forget 'my role model'? yea, its not working. everything i do seems to lead to me telling her something. its so annoying :( i know she doesnt like me, but i cant frikin' help but talk to her! :(

trying to forget someone isnt as easy as it sounds...

im really trying to forget someone at the minute. my role model. this may sound incredibly stupid, but, believe me i have my explanation :) im not going to write my explanation or bitch about her, because im not like that. and im most definitely NOT going to be mean to her for not caring about me. ill just be nice and let her feel how she feels.

lets just say, ive REALLY noticed how little she cares for me and how often she ignores me? i mean, ive always know it but ive only just started realising how much. i spoke to my best friend, pikachu (aka bumcheek,) and she text me this reaalllyyy long text saying what i should say to 'my role model' and i should try and make her feel bad. she clearly does not understand. if i did that i would just end up apologising and feeling more bad than she would! i have tried it before though.

 another person i asked was the person i go to when this person isnt there. she is older than pikachu and understands more. and she first asked why i needed to talk to her, this is because i explained that i didnt want to talk to her but i couldnt help it. but i couldnt think of any reason, i mean i had the little reasons like 'shes awesome,' 'she understands me,' 'shes fun to talk to.' but they arent proper reasons! she then suggested that everytime i want to talk to her, i write down the reasons why i shouldnt. like... 'she doesnt care about what i say, its not going to effect her life' and things like that. i thought this was a really good idea :D

i have also done my research. yes, im THAT sad. and according to my research you need to keep busy so that you have no time to think about them. so i have planned my 5 day week up to 8pm each night, so i can then have a bath, to keep myself distracted from talking to 'her'.

ive just noticed this sounds like shes a right meanie... shes not! shes really nice!! but i guess its more that i know she doesnt want me to talk to her than me not wanting to talk to her. because shes 19 and going off to university this week... im the last thing she wants to be talking to! im actually trying to get her with this 'new' coach at rowing. i actually think he likes her :D hahahahaha. but im not going to tell her how i know that, shhhh. she will probably find someone at university though.

im off out now... before i get tempted to talk to her :(

IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1. i just got back from working out with this fitness trainer. shes training me to get fitter for rowing. TIRED. and she says that im not eating enough or of the right foods which is why im always hungry and feel fat. she has now told me stuff i have to eat, so its all good! shes REALLY good though, if you want her number just let me know :)
2. i had to use a really scary machine in RM today.
3. my lights in my room are FINALLY working. they havent been for months!
4. i got a B+ in my english thinggyy :D so proud of myself. this means that if the writing i did was for a gcse grade i would have got a B+, and im only in ...year 9?

the best thing thats happened for a while :D

i have these two amazing friends: Molly and Martha. well i say they are my friends but i havent seen them for 6 or 7 years i think we worked it out as. which is incredibly bad! its not that they have forgotten about us or weve forgotten about them, its just they live hours and hours away. four hours, i think. so we havent had time to go and see them, in these 6 years.

i have honestly been trying to get in contact with them for months and months, it could even be years. ive been trying to look them up on facebook, text their mum. but because its been 6 years i couldnt remember what exactly they looked like and we had the wrong number for their mum.

BUT ANYWAY, TODAY WAS THE DAY I FINALLY SPOKE TO THEM AFTER ALL THESE YEARS! i spent hours trying to find them on facebook but it was difficult as they have obviously grown up and changed since i saw them. BUT I ACTUALLY FOUND THEM. well i found Molly first. this was because my mum used to be really good friends with theirs (thats how i know them) and said that she looked like her in her proflie picture. so i sent her a message asking if it was her and if she remembered me, surprisingly SHE DID. she then sent me a link to Martha and i added her too. so ive spent the hole of the evening talking to them, catching up!

obviously they dont look like this now. this was all those years ago :;)

AHHH, SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW :'D

im determined to get rid of this flub.

i seem to always get life the harder way. please dont feel as if im complaining, because im not! i dont mind getting life the harder way, its just sometimes i wish i could solve the problems.

i go to Spain (Barcelona) in roughly 6 weeks and im really trying to get fitter (lose some weight) for it. i only realised how fat i had got since the beginning of this week. since then i have not been eating AS much and have been training on the track EVERY night that i dont have netball, rowing or am out.

i felt like crying yesterday. i went over to the track, on my scooter. yes, my SCOOTER (i couldnt be bothered to get my bike down, does this explain?!) i did a few stretches. by this i mean i did 4 lunges then started training. I ONLY MANAGED TO DO ONE BLOODY LAP BEFORE I HAD TO HAVE A REST. sorry for the capitals but i really think its necessary. one lap is approximately 400 meters. that's nothing! i used to be able to run miles and miles without stopping. i am so unfit now!! so after my VERY LONG break i did another lap. again ONLY ONE. i think i was just in a lazy mood yesterday, actually. i then did one last lap as i decided i would build up my fitness slowly. i then did some sprinting. some training, eh?

today wasnt much better either. however, i am improving! i managed to run two laps without a break today. DISAPPOINTING. but this time i had a MUCH shorter break and i did another two laps again before starting my sprinting.

yesterday - 1200 meters (total)
today - 1600 meters (total)
tomorrow, can you guess? im going to go with 2000 meters. this is my way to build up my fitness. yayy...

youve gotta love them sudden bursts of random laughter.

tonight my mum and i made home made pizzas for dinner. you may be thinking, what the hell Rianne? you have no life. its a friday, why arent you out? this is not because i dont have a life... actually, to put save a lot of time lets just say i have no life. i dont row on fridays anymore, the timetable has changed so im not used to being free. so anyway, we made the dough which took forever for it to be ready! in this time my mum managed to go food shopping.

the pizza was finally cooked and my mum, dad and i were sat at the table eating like normal human beings. i then, out of nowhere, burst out laughing. this continued for about 30-40 minutes. it may not seem long, but if you think about it, laughing for that long none stop is quite a long time. as you can imagine, i had incredibly painful tummy aches by the end of this laughter. but its over now :) my parents recon its because i was drinking breeeeezzeeeeerrrr. but i definitely wasnt drunk, i swear! hahahahahaaahahaa, funny times :)x

i sometimes wish i had friends a bit more like myself.

so i saw this event on facebook and i saw some people from my school were attending. i clicked on it n
and decided i really wanted to go. its like a big party for under 16s with no alcohol, obviously.

so i then text about 8 of my friends asking if they would go with me and only two said they would!! because the others said they cant be bothered or wont be allowed or it will be shit. it may very well be shit but i would like to try it out. we always talk about going out clubbing when were older, like all the time at school. but when it actually comes to going out, none of them want to!! its so annoying :( cause i love partying, no joke. i love going to clubs, meeting new people, having a good dance. but i cant really just go on my own. and even the two friends who have said they will go are still not sure :(

 its so unfair. i always go into town to meet them when thats really what i DONT want to be doing! but i go because its what they want to do, and they never do anything what i want to do. ohh well, its not for about 4 or 5 weeks yet, im sure itll be fine:) until then, ill just keep complaining. ;D

dont we all love early mornings? -.-

'WHATS UP B BOYS AND B GIRLS?' nah, just kidding. im not mattybraps <-- cool kid.

so to be honest with you, i havent done anything in these past two weeks. not because i havent been invited anywhere, just because im a lazy sausage. infact, yesterday i had to get up at 8 to go to the dentist and today i had to get up at 8 to go to cookham regatta to go dragon boat racing. -.-. yesterday was horrible, not gunna lie. i had to go for my filling. they were drilling in my tooth, picking, and sucking! it was horrible. it was really near the nerve aswell and i didnt want the injection so therefore he had to put a special filling in it, which is pink-.- it looks horrible!! he also did an x-ray, that bit was awesome! i have to go back in 3 months :(

and today wasnt great either. had to wait two and a half hours, in the freezing cold, before we had our first race. we lost. then we waited four hours for our next. we won. then an hour and a half for the last. we lost. it was so boring! and in this time, i managed to drop my phone in the river. so now its basically broken :(!!

what a waste of getting up early.