Life is sometimes difficult, but you've got to act causal and keep calm.

i had a party tonight.it was a girls from my class. i call her a girl because, honestly, im not close enough with her to call her my 'friend'. she pretty much invited every random person at school.

 i went to Alea's house after school and got ready there. we arrived at the community centre (where the party was) embarrassingly early. Courtney (whose party is was) and some other people who we refer to as 'chavs' were stood there waiting. we had to choose between staying in the car and waiting for people who we called 'friends' or going out or going and standing with the chavs. we chose the chavs.

the start wasnt great. after we ssaid hey to everyone, the boy 'chavs' came along. Alea is a very panicy, sensitive person. who wants nothing to do with drugs, smoking, drinking, sex and all that underaged stuff. so her reaction when one of the boys came over with a bag of weed and was making everyone smell it was exactly as i expected. she started to walk off a bit and called me over. i wanted to make it casual, i did this by looking away. we were in luck, our friends drove up down the road. so we walked down and stood with them until the chavs went in.

to make this a LITTLE less boring, EVERYONE was smoking, some did drugs and most people were drinking alcohol and getting pissed. awesome party, right? not when you have a panicy friend, i cant tell you that now. i didnt want to leave her, because thats not what a good friend would do. however, i didnt want to be the only ones on the dance floor when no one else was dancing. so i made sure she had some people to dance with before i went and joined the others outside.

it was quite upsetting at the party actually. my friend who i have known since i was 3 in now one of the chavs. he smokes AND does drugs. he used to be like my BEST friend and we were ever so close. it really hurts to see what hes become now. he USED to be like a brother to me, therefore, i am feeling now like i should try and stop him. i have tried, i really have. but he has mixed with the chavs, therefore, is pressured into everything. hes always been naughty, but this is just too far. im never going to do drugs. there are better ways do die thanks.

was a pretty shittt party if im totally honest. ohh well :)