Tuesday, 6 December 2011

I'm coming back!!

I apologise for my absence. I feel I am a terrible blogger. But, if you understood what's been going on with my life recently, maybe you would begin to forgive me:) I'm going to start writing again this week, explaining everything!( well only the things which I'm allowed to post ont the Internet!!)

So happy right now:D:D

Speak soooooon :D:D

P.s: IM SORRY FOR ABADONIG YOU ALL FOR A MONTH OR SO :'(

Wednesday, 16 November 2011

it's beginning to feel a lot like christmas

i love Christmas. its definitely my favourite celebration of the year, beats birthdays. i dont know why, i just like the thought of everyone sharing all the presents and being with your family :) its great, pure greatness. 

as you may have noticed, im going skiing on boxing day. therefore, i realise im not entitled to tones of presents as i usually am. so ive had to cut down my Christmas list :( here is it...

- Superdry coat

- someday perfume by justin bieber :P

- just dance 3 (wii)

- itunes voucher

- the inbetweeners movie <-- awesome film !

- JLS's new CD (jukebox)

- 2012 JLS calendar

- boy posters... to add to my lovely collection on my wall

- cooking/recipe books

- cooking equipment

^ thats what ive got SO far. i guarentee i will find more stuff i would like to add :)

ahh i love christmas! :') ... speaking of Christmas ...

38 DAYS, 19 HOURS, 3 MINUTES, 2O SECONDS :D:D

Monday, 14 November 2011

Swimming gala failness

I originally didnt even want to do the swimming gala. I went and saw the head of pe to ask what it was about and be automatically put my name down. Great.

I was put into 25m breast stroke, 50m breast stroke, mealdy relay and freestyle relay. I didn't want to do those races but I got on with it. We got given the choice to either stand on the diving block or start from in the pool. Everyone used the block, except me. I didn't want to risk belly flopping and completely messing all of the races up. So there I was, casually being the only one starting in the pool. So embarrassing! To say the least. It was obvious from the first race that the divers gained half the length just from the dive. So I didn't do too bad considering I had to catch up the push which I didn't have. However, I still started from the pool for the rest of the races. I'm so clever.

Terrible event. BUT luckily we got given drinks and doughnuts afterwards :D it's great going to a rich school.

Tuesday, 8 November 2011

Macaulay Culkin got into drugs? :O

i loved the home alone series when i was younger. and i quite honestly still watch them occasionally. Macaulay Culkin (Kevin from home alone) got into drugs at the age of 24! seeing as he is now 31, i am clearly very late on this news.


He was caught with marijuana and dangerous substances of Xanax and sleeping pills. he began taking Xanax first. he blamed the usage of this on his anxiety and his dad who FORCED him to work as a 'star child'. he then got hooked on the drug and began smoking marijuana. BAD IDEA!!


^^^ :(

he couldn't cope with the anxiety. that's understandable, right? he doesn't do any form of drug NOW and is married to someone called 'Rachel Miner'. so his life is basically back to normal and hes off the drugs. all good :) plus, he was only in jail for four hours. however, i was upset when i found out :( but life can now move on :D

i personally don't think smoking marijuana a few times and taking Xanax can be classed as a 'drug addict'. he didn't do it very long, he soon got off the drugs. however, i guess you could argue that smoking marijuana would be safe to say you take drugs. but i disagree. so many people take drugs now-er days. i predict 65% of my school have at least tried some form of drugs before. you cant get in or out of school without being asked to buy some. im sure Macaulay Culkin regrets it though. most people would

Sunday, 6 November 2011

Pangbourne 3k time trials

having a sleepover on Friday night was definitely not a good idea. however, saying that, i wouldn't of been able to sleep if Emily wasnt there. this was because we had just watch paranormal activity 3 and i was going to be home alone -.-

we got back to my house after the cinema at about 12am. we then watched films until we couldn't stay awake any longer. this was at about 3am.

we then had to get up at 9.45 to go and row at Pangbourne. we were completely shattered when we first woke up. within half an hour we were up and began getting dressed. we then walked over to tesco express to buy food and drinks for the whole day.

it was a 3k row. i generally thought we would do terrible. it sounded so far.

i needed a wee just as we were about to go and get in our boat. from my experience in rowing, i know that needing a wee in a race effects it HUGELY! i had to go. i dragged Lizzie all the way down to the car back, where the toilets were. they was a HUGE que. she said i had no time to go. she then dragged me all the way back. i searched for a bush on the way back, so i could at least just go in a bush. there was none. just grass. i then went and told my mum that i really needed to go. she said she would go and ask if i could skip the que. i ended up just going in this bush, where everyone could see, where cars drove passed. how embarrassing.

we had to first row 3k up to the start, moving at about 2mph, if that. we had to que all the way up, it wasn't ordered and no one knew what was going on. we just went with the flow. i was honestly so cold whilst we were waiting. i was told to take my jumper off about 40 minutes before we even began our race. i was possibly the coldest i have ever been. my hands went orange and purple, i struggled to move them. it was not a good time to feel cold.

we finally started our race. boyyy, it went quickly! i found it sooooo much easier than the 1500. that doesn't even make sense. it was definitely my favourite race i have ever done, so far. we ended up coming second :( we always seem to come second nower-days. but i cant complain, im satisfied with coming second :)

Saturday, 5 November 2011

PARANORMAL ACTIVITY 3 IS AMAZING!

it was amazing. that's pretty much the only word to describe it.

don't get me wrong, it was scary. really rather incredibly scary. but it was soo good at the same time. loads of it made you jump, i generally thought i was going to have a heart attack. then when it got to the night bits you knew something scary was going to happen.

Emily and i were cuddling up to each other. still watching, just using each other as comfort. whilst Montanna was texting for ALL of it and kept asking us what was happening.

its generally a great film - much better than the first and second ones. i recommend going to see it - im definitely going to buy it on DVD! :)

Friday, 4 November 2011

theres no reason why things from books cant happen in reality, youve just got to have the confidence.

do you ever look at someone and think 'mmmm, he (or she) is yummmmyyy'? i do, all the time. i always want to just walk up to a hot looking boy, who also looks kind and caring, and introduce myself. one part of me says i should just go for it, whilst the other side reminds me that they may have a girlfriend and that would be hugely awkward. sadly, the negative out weighs the positive :(

i think i have read too many books. boys are always so good looking, charming, caring, kind, loving and pretty much what every girl would love to have, in books. but in reality, there is 99.9999% of finding a boy like that. the even worse part of this is, the odd boy that you do find with all those qualities is more often than not dating a complete slut. which just goes back to it being very hard to find such a dreamy boy. if they date a slut, that clearly means that looks mean a lot to them. most sluts are slags, most slags are whores, most whores are horrible people.so make that 99.99999% of finding a boy which we could descirbe as 'perfect.'

im going to go up to a fit boy at the UV foam party, and just go for it! who cares if they have a girlfriend? im not suggesting to get off with them or start dating them.

IMPORTANT:
1, im going to frankie & bennys for dinner in 3 hours. we are going to say its our friends birthday and take a cake in, when its really not.
2, im seeing paranormal activity 3 after weve eaten. so excited :) ill update you with how that goes on... sunday.
3, 50 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS
4, 51 DAYS UNTIL I GO SKIING
5, my dog's teeth are falling out :( im not joking.  pooor little thing.

Thursday, 3 November 2011

schooool photos

ive never liked school photos. however, i normally love having my photo taken. just not school ones. i have come to the conclusion to just blame it all on the school photographer. they are horrible, really freakily horrible. they have really yellow teeth which are all wonky. they definitely aren't the most attractive people on earth. its not just there appearance that gets to me (in the nicest possible way), its their personality that goes with it. such weird humans. they honestly look like they have been smoking since they could function their brains properly and have been taking class A drugs. i know this sounds cruel, but they really are this awful.

^^ there's my photo -.- ^^

oh dear, right? well actually, saying that, its a lot better than all of my other year ones. i really cant smile to save my life... as you can see. such a fake smile i had to put on. obviously i can smile, just in photos smiling doesnt really work out for me. 

now my parents have about 20 copies of this because it came in a deal which they stupidly bought. -.-

IMPORTANT:
1, im seeing paranormal activity 3 tomorrow at the cinemaa.
2, 51 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!!!
3, 52 DAYS UNTIL I GO SKIING!
4, ive got rowing time trials on saturday :(
5, i did nearly 3 hours of ergos today, therefore im tired. THEREFORE, im going to go and have a nap.

tooooodlessss

Wednesday, 2 November 2011

homee-lonneee-lonesss

i love being home alone. i really do. i sometimes just sing as loud as i can, as i dance around the house like a three year old. its much more fun when im alone. i dont have to act grown up or mature. i get to be my own childish self, with no one there to judge me. you see, im definitely not grown up or mature. i just act like i am when im out. but not at school. nooooo. everyone at school knows how immaturely hyper active i am. school just makes me that happy :)

so if you ever get a moment when your alone, with no one to judge you. just sing, shout and dance around like you have nothing to worry about. its great for depression and stress.


GOT TO GO RUN AROUND THE HOUSE BEFORE MY FAM-A-LAMA GET HOME. AHHHHH :D

Tuesday, 1 November 2011

writing in past tense gives it effect? does this not just sound like iv'e risen from the dead to write it...?

It was painful. Having a black, hairy, poisonous spider crawling up you throat-like-painful. The cold, Christmas, frosty weather was definitely not helping the situation. Shivering with frostbite, i took another attempt to cough. The pain turning into agony, the spider turning into a tarantula, and the cold wind turning into icy snow each time. Just from one little cough i found myself catching my breath, hoping it was just a little cold, nothing serious. I felt my body give in as all my feelings disappeared. I heard my mum running up the stairs, screaming to get to me quick enough. My eyes closed.


^false! im not dead :) i was told to write in the past tense and start and end with a simple sentence, making the middle sentences longer. this is written a little depressingly, you may think, it may explain why it is poorly written... but theres the rough copy. 

speak soooon x

Monday, 31 October 2011

awkwaaard

i hate it when you have a really awkward conversation, by text, with someone and then have to see them the next day. i don't mean a slightly awkward conversation, im talking about the most awkward conversation you can imagine!

this so very awkward conversation was held with my best friend. he is like a brother to me. we stupidly decided we would talk about how far we would go with each other... this indeed went way too far, further than i was expecting. i guess i shouldn't really say anything more before i get myself into a lot of trouble. he has a girlfriend /: who is my old best friend, which i now hate. i hate seeing them together :'( but that's just life i guess. the cause to me not texting him any longer was because he had a girlfriend. he said he would cheat on her with me :O no, that's wrong. i would never let him do that!


today was very awkward at school, but we soon got over it :)

awkwarddd timess ;P

IMPORTANT THINGS:
1, its 54 days until Christmas.
2, im going to this firework thing with Alea on Saturday, should be fun - i love fireworks :)
3, im also going ice skating, shopping and visiting the cinema a few times with Alea (on different days). to see abduction and breaking dawn when it comes out.
4, im going to a UV foam party. ive never been to one before, apparently the foam is alumnus or something?
5, im not liking how dark it is :( its been dark all day! no fair :(  


(:

Sunday, 30 October 2011

i'd be fine if i was intelligent.

i often wonder how my future is going to turn out. good? or bad? i realise it is going to very difficult to get a job, to buy a house (or at least somewhere to live), to buy a car, to get driving lessons, get into a good university and still have spear money to buy food supplies. in fact, to have all of that is very unlikely. obviously it can be achieved, but your going to have to be more intelligent than you could imagine. sadly, im not intelligent. im not afraid to admit that. i know my gcse results aren't going to be very great. however, that isn't going to stop me revising every single night up to the exam, to continue to try extremely hard at school and to go out less so i can revise. i know it will all pay off in the end.

ive got my aim. ive realised im never going to marry someone rich but who is also kind and loving. and to be honest, i would choose a loving, caring and kind man over a rich, self centred prick. i don't even know what i want to do for a living. i honestly have not a clue. im beginning to develop an interest in hair dressing. but knowing me ill change my mind in a month or so.

i sometimes wish i could get my future told by one of those freaky people, often found abroad. my mum had it done, and it was exactly right. everything she got old would happen, actually did. the only problem is, its very expensive and they are hard to find. then at least i would know if my future was going to go badly, i could change it. and it good, keep everything the same.

im sure it will turn out just fine, im just worrying. i guess :)

Saturday, 29 October 2011

text sex? does it even exist?

i know there is phone sex, which is normally hugely awkward. but is there text sex? just a little bit of advice, if someone asks you if you want to have text sex, do NOT agree until you have found out exactly what it is. if it is something? you will probably find your phone being over loaded with inappropriate photos, and trust me you'll laugh and find it hard to resist putting them on facebook. until you realise they are wanting you to send some more photos back. that part is definitely not funny.

i guess it could mean something. because phone sex, cyber sex and all those other weirdly invented things is basically the same. you just don't see anything live, its all very descriptive and photographic. i don't even understand why they have 'sex' written at the end of them. they are most certainly not classed as having sex. so if you think your going to lose your virginity that way, sorry to break it to you, but you might want to think again :)

its such a weird life we live in today. text sex? really? whats next, x box sex? wii sex? ps3 sex? no, lets get real here. its nothing pleasant. if your that horny go and have proper sex! cyber sex, phone sex AND text sex are hugely pathetic. unless your in a long distance relationship, then its understandable and acceptable.


this is a very bizarre topic, i realise that. i just think you should all understand that it does not count as losing your virginity. :)

ALSO:
if you are trying to have sex underage and hopefully aren't planning to get pregnant. pregnancy pills will not be given to you. you have to go to a doctor to get them, a parent or guardian has to be there and you have to have a good enough reason to get them. therefore, its highly unlikely that you will be able to get them. you may as well use condoms, but maybe use an extra one or maybe even two. just in case. you can get them from toilets. most public toilets actually. 
IM NOT SUGGESTING YOU HAVE SEX UNDERAGE BUT YOU KNOW... im just saying pregnancy pills are hard to get.

take the advice.. or don't... its your choice :)

Thursday, 27 October 2011

Why cant everything just Slow down!!

Everything is happening so fast. Too fast. I want to go back to the days where I could sit on sims all day, not bother going out, not do any work and pig out on food and not put on any weight.I have always wanted to take charge of my life, until it actually started happening. You may be thinking WTF? I'm only 13...

I've started my GCSE courses! I'm taking them two years early :( I have my first exam a few months after I go back to school. It chemistry :( I can't do science to save my life, it's all too much for my brain.

I do not honestly get a second to spare. I get so much homework, then I've got loads of sport activities, revising, working out, and all that essential stuff. Then on top of that I've got to find time for my family, social life, parties, guitar, alone time, eating, extra activities such as cadets and sleep! Life is just so busy :(

I'm honestly crapping myself about these gcses :( I need to start revising, I want to walk into the results room and pick up my envelope of results not feeling at all scared because I know I would of done my best. Whether that's ping to happen, I do not know. Im so bad at revising, it goes in one ear and out the other. Oh I wish I was naturally intelegent :(


Speak soon... If I don't write for a while ... There's my excuses ^^


Ps: ive got lots to write about from Spain, I will try and find time to do that.

Byee ��

Tuesday, 18 October 2011

is my mum the only embarrassing one on this earth?

ive never liked the doctors. i guess not many people do. but today, i had to go. i wasnt really 'scared' as i normally am. i usually always get scared when there. but i knew they were only going to give me some medication so it was all good.

i had a lie in this morning, well a bit more sleep than i usually would have on a school day, i should say. mum then woke me up before she left to take Ellie (the person i share lifts with) to school. she had instructed me to walk the dogs.

we arrived at the doctors a little later than we were meant to be there. my mum and i are usually late to places. this time traffic was the excuse.

i followed my mum into the room where i was to be seen. such a lovely lady the nurse was.we spoke about my first 'issue' (not problem) she prescripted me with some medication. and then the second 'issue' which was also prescripted with medication.

i then went and sat in the car whilst my mum 'poped' into the toilet. well i say poped. i was beginning to wonder what had happened to her, do i go in and check shes ok? or stay seated and listen to music? i chose to listen to the music. a lady at the reception then came and knocked on the window explaining that my mum had been locked in the toilet. i followed the receptionist back to the toilets.

she was ACTUALLY stuck.... FOR TWO HOURS! the handle just wasnt opening, so they called a locksmith to come and rescue her. they took nearly an hour to come. was ridiculaous.

after she was FINALLY out of the toilet. she made a few phone calls as she had missed some of her clients. we then popped into asda to pick up the medication. we had to wait 20 minutes for the chemist to open -.- this made my mum late for ANOTHER client. my mum went outside and had a cigarette whilst i stood there ashamed.

once they were open, we grabbed the medication and ran. ive had NEVER swallowed a tablet before. im not sure why. its just something ive never been able to do. but the nurse said ive got to take them or she cant help.  so on the way to school, i had to take one. i did the panicing bit, 'no i cant do it' 'ahh no' 'i dont want to' 'i cant!' obviously ;) my mum then instructed me with what i had to do annddd.... I DID IT :D like straight away. im so pathetic!

i then had netball training after school - funnnn. after that i ate dinner. thennn... went babysitting. theennn ... did some paper work. yes, paper work. not homework. next.... i started packing. AND THEN ... had a bath :)

^ thats my day right there. fun? -.-

IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1, i go to Spain in two days, therefore, probably wont have time to write on this before i leave. ill update you all when i get back though :)
2,  ITS 67 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS


SPEAK WHEN I GET BACK

:)

Friday, 14 October 2011

Life is sometimes difficult, but you've got to act causal and keep calm.

i had a party tonight.it was a girls from my class. i call her a girl because, honestly, im not close enough with her to call her my 'friend'. she pretty much invited every random person at school.

 i went to Alea's house after school and got ready there. we arrived at the community centre (where the party was) embarrassingly early. Courtney (whose party is was) and some other people who we refer to as 'chavs' were stood there waiting. we had to choose between staying in the car and waiting for people who we called 'friends' or going out or going and standing with the chavs. we chose the chavs.

the start wasnt great. after we ssaid hey to everyone, the boy 'chavs' came along. Alea is a very panicy, sensitive person. who wants nothing to do with drugs, smoking, drinking, sex and all that underaged stuff. so her reaction when one of the boys came over with a bag of weed and was making everyone smell it was exactly as i expected. she started to walk off a bit and called me over. i wanted to make it casual, i did this by looking away. we were in luck, our friends drove up down the road. so we walked down and stood with them until the chavs went in.

to make this a LITTLE less boring, EVERYONE was smoking, some did drugs and most people were drinking alcohol and getting pissed. awesome party, right? not when you have a panicy friend, i cant tell you that now. i didnt want to leave her, because thats not what a good friend would do. however, i didnt want to be the only ones on the dance floor when no one else was dancing. so i made sure she had some people to dance with before i went and joined the others outside.

it was quite upsetting at the party actually. my friend who i have known since i was 3 in now one of the chavs. he smokes AND does drugs. he used to be like my BEST friend and we were ever so close. it really hurts to see what hes become now. he USED to be like a brother to me, therefore, i am feeling now like i should try and stop him. i have tried, i really have. but he has mixed with the chavs, therefore, is pressured into everything. hes always been naughty, but this is just too far. im never going to do drugs. there are better ways do die thanks.

was a pretty shittt party if im totally honest. ohh well :)

Wednesday, 12 October 2011

Grandparents are so embarrassing.

So last Monday, i decided i hadn't seen my grandparents for such a long time. well i say a long time, really i mean a week and a half or so. but this is a VERY long time for me. i used to go to their house 3 or 4 times a week, but now its very hard as my life has become soooooo busy. im incredibly close with my grandparents, and im not even afraid to admit it. they are like my best friends. their house is basically my second home :) they have been very supportive over these years since i lost both my other grandparents :( but anyway... getting on with the point...

So on Monday, my nanny and granddad picked me up after school and took me back to their house. my nanny made me a sandwich and gave me some crisps for my energy for rowing. was AMAZING, i love her sandwiches. my granddad and i then started talking about what i wanted to do when i left school. i have no idea. im not quite sure how but we started talking about how im going off to Spain next week. think it must of had something to do with the fact i said i wanted to travel when im older. my granddad then raced upstairs to find some euros he had left (he used to travel everywhere, he was in the army or something like that). we counted it out and there was 110£. he gave it to me and because im such a nice person i gave half to my brother because we are alwayss going out to Spain. we then left for rowing INCREDIBLY EARLY. no seriously. like 40 minutes earlier than we should of. this was because my Granddad was scared we were going to get stuck in traffic.

we didn't get stuck in traffic. not at all! so as we were going down the Dual carriageway way, he decided he would go at 5MPH. that's not even a joke. he was actually going that slow. all the cars over took us and looked at us as if we had some sort of problems. im not surprised to be honest. i honestly couldn't think of anything worse. clearly i was wrong....

this slow driving continued ALL the way down to rowing. not funny. i then realised how early we were and decided i didn't want them to park in the normal car park because that's were everyone i know goes and that would be embarrassing being seen with them. im not being mean but i do find it hugely embarrassing /: so my granddad drove into the car park i had told him to. there i was thinking we would just sit there for 20 minutes -.-. but NO, we have to get out and go for a walk. i didn't want to say no because i didn't want to be rude.

so we went for a walk down the river. i walked the opposite way to where we do the rowing, in case i saw anyone i knew. we went and stood by the kayaking and sort of just stood there. we then decided we would go and sit in the cafe.it was closed -.- so then i suggested i went and helped set up, meaning they could go and i could just go down. buttt nooooo, they came with me. so by this point i decided i wasn't going to go and help because 1, nothing actually needed setting up i was just trying to hint the fact they could go, and 2, i didn't want them coming too. so we went and sat on a bench which was quite near where we row.

however, it was reaalllyyy cold there. so my granddad suggested we went and sat in the car for 15 minutes. that's what we did... for 1 minute! my nanny then suggested we went to the other car park. i was like 'i think were ok here' 'i don't know if we are allowed in the other car park' 'no its ok don't worry'. clearly they didn't take in anything i said, my granddad said 'im going to drive you down to the other car park and see if anyone is there'.

so yes, he drove down to the other car park. EVERYONE WAS THERE. including all the coaches. we just drove right through, i tried to make him drive quicker and park so i could get out but noooo he has to go slow. i didn't understand why, normally he drives suppperrrrrr quick. SO FRIKIN' EMBARRASSING!!

They came round for dinner that night too, haha.

Got to love grandparents, i certainly love mine :) ... that's not sarcastic by the way.

<3

Sunday, 9 October 2011

Monkton Time trials - 8th October -

yesterday was the day i had been waiting for, for a long enough time. i hadnt raced in soo long because of the summer holiday break. we had to leave at 7.45!! this was because we had to drive all the way to... somewhere near bath i think it was. Emily, her mother and her little sister picked my mother and myself up and off we went.

the first race was incredible. my crew really pushed to the limit. we were going ever so quickly. however, the wind then hit us near the end. we had to keep fighting through the pain. trust me, it was painful. we finished in a time of i think 7.28.6? i think it was. we had won so far!! we were all so happy but decided not to get too excited because last time this happened and someone from another division beat us at the last minute. we looked like idiots.

it came down to either winning or my schools other crew beating mine. i was so sure we were going to beat them. we do have more power, its been proven before. however, they beat us. i dont know by how much. i came to the conclusion that we did win in our hearts, because if we didnt have the bit of wind at the end, we would have beaten them easy. they didnt have any wind. but i guess thats life. i was so angry when they went up and collected their rewards. not only because we had been beaten, but, because we got beaten by our friends.

i then had to cox another one of our quads. that was DEFINITELY not successful. i crashed, RIGHT AT THE BEGINNING. i felt so bad. they lost so much time there. i needed the toilet, SO BADLY. and anything i did mad me need it even more. so i started thinking about other things. the race then started whilst my head was thinking of butterflies and cup cakes. by the time i started to turn, it was too late. we went straight into the bush and got stuck for a good minute or so. they all shouted at me, and quite rightly they should of. im such a douche.

there is a positive to this day though! we got a burger king on the way home. because we're fattys. this got me out of my bad mood. just the thought of knowing we could of won. weve never won :( however, it was an improvement... last year Emily and i came 4th in our double. so we're improving. i couldnt work out whether it was the burger king or the tiredness that made me go hyper. think it was a bit of both actually. i often go hyper when im tired. weird, right? i ended up biting Emily, laughing ever so loudly at the service station and getting all the lovely, tired people there to stare at me like i was on some kind of drug. i also thought i spotted the effiel tower on the way home. these arejust a few examples of the crazy things i do.

i then got home at like 9.15pm. i decided i would go on facebook and upload the photos of rowing. i sat on facebook ALL night. fun.

rowing this morning. at 8! no lie in this weekend. fml. i was in a double with Filiz. that was everything but good. was terrible.

IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1, really want to move school at the moment. not because i dont like my school, I LOVE IT. i will explain this in another post.

11 DAYS UNTIL SPAIN.
76 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS

Thursday, 6 October 2011

Stupid Open evening!

i hadn't planned on helping out at open evening. this was because we had half day today (because of open evening) and i wanted to go into town and just chill. however, i did send my rowing coach an email offering to come if he REALLY wanted me to. what i did not think was that he would actually want me to go.

i had just finished dinner and i suddenly remembered i had offered to help out. i quickly ran to the iPad to check the emails. THREE EMAILS FROM ROWING. i read them one bye one. just my luck, one of them read 'that would be great, see you tonight.' well firstly, this sounds very wrong from a ROWING COACH. or maybe just in my head? haha.

i was screwed. i didn't know what time it was even meant to start. i went onto the school website and checked. 6- 8.30. well at this point it was 5 past 6! i ran as fast as i could up to my bedroom, stripped off my uniform and threw my PE kit on in a hurry. i was then delayed EVEN MORE by my brother deciding he would move the car and block up the drive. hes 16, however, has decided he wants to start learning around out estate. hes actually very good, iv'e got to say. once he FINALLY moved out of the way, mum drove me down to school in 4 minutes! this is actually very quick if you consider that we drove from Wycombe to Marlow.

i had obviously thought of a plan on the way down. however, not a plan B. didn't think i would need one.
PLAN: get out the car. RUN LIKE FUCK TO THE BLUE ROOM. apologise for being late and blame it on my brother.
what could possibly go wrong? i thought.

it didn't exactly go to plan. i got out the car, forgetting there was LOADS of people. how stupid of me! it was open evening. so i dodged all the people, ran from the car to the blue room. i then ran in the outside door to find Emily, Montanna, Holly, Lucy and Natalie all standing in there. they were all very surprised to see me as i told them i wasn't going to go. they then explained that Mr Farrelly wasn't going to even be there because he was in the library.

it was very tiring and boring, to say the least. i was glad when it was finally over!

IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1, i would really like to move to another country for a few years. so much shit going on at the moment.

14 DAYS UNTIL SPAIN
79 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

i hate school photos.

we had our school photos on monday. i really do hate them. i always look so terrible in them. however, this year i couldnt wait any longer to get a new one. my photo last year was seriously gross. i had my hair down and it was long and thick and looked horrible. because i obviously didnt have my hair cut back then.

so i had them done with the paedophilic photographers. i had an individual photo and one with my form. im really dreading how they are going to come out. ahh well...


IMPORTANT UPDATES:
15 DAYS UNTIL BARCELONA
80 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS

Tuesday, 4 October 2011

boys are so confusingly annoying.

i realise i haven't written for while. you've gotta understand how much effort is needed to keep writing on here? ;) i have four blogs i need to write, in so little time to do it. i will start this one with the boy i have my crush on...

ive heard all the stories of boys leading girls on, pretending to love them but then going off with someone else. however, saying this, not once did i stop and think it would happen to me. boys are such confusing species. i mean, i love boys. i cant say i don't, none of us would be here if it wasn't for them. well and us girls too. its a joint effort we all exist ;)

i have had a crush on this boy for sooo long now, its unbelievable. however, yesterday he decided he would get with a girl. (someone i don't know). fair enough, you may think? let me explain. he had been leading me on, putting loads of kisses on his texts to me, texting me EVERYDAY for MONTHS and MONTHS, told me he wanted me to be his future girlfriend and all that crap. AND THEN he decides to go out and get a girlfriend. am i wrong to feel this angry, cross and confused?

i decided i wouldn't talk to him last night, because i honestly didn't know what to say. and my friend once told me, and i quote... 'if you don't know what to say then he's not worth the words.' i went by this quote. i really did not know what to do or think. im meant to be going skiing with him at Christmas and im so pissed off at him. GREAT.

anyway, to brighten this up.... HES NOT GOING OUT WITH HER ANYMORE. wooo, a one day relationship! i don't know what happened, as to why they broke up. but im not even going to ask. im still not going to talk to him yet. ill give it a few weeks, me thinks.


Why does he have to live so far away? :(

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

im so generous.

playing netball for an hour after a hard days work at school is not necessary. i was tired and grumpy. however, i decided i would go because i didnt want to be lazy. there was only like 6 of us from year 9 and two people from year 10. we did some reaction skills and then got into some mini matches, dropping out some positions. my team won, obviously.

because im such a nice and generous person, i decided i would give up MY position for someone else. literally EVERYONE wanted to be goal attack today. so i decided i would back out and be wing defense even though this is like the 3rd week ive given up MY position!! grrrr. why am i so nice? ;P


IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1, ive decided to make Chris lasagna and send it to him in the post. this is because he apparently eats microwave lasagna. who does that? SERIOUSLY? ;)
2, ive ordered my ticket to go to the Halloween rave. dont think ive mentioned this? its basically another party where the foam party was. i will probably be attending all these parties now :L its Halloween themed, so, alea and i have decided to go as dead faires. HAHA.
3, IM FINALLY ON TOP OF ALL MY HOMEWORK.
4, im hopefully going to get my rowing machine after all these months of waiting.


D:

Monday, 26 September 2011

did i really just put that on the internet?

urghh, i HATE monday mornings. well, mondays in general. im always so tired and very unenthusiastic. but i forced myself to get out of bed .

i walked into form, later than wanted, as usual. i have the strictest teacher in the whole school as my form tutor. lucky me, right? well this new girl joined today. her name is marie, its not pronounced mary, its like MAARRIEEEE. i have been picked to be her mentor as she is in all of my classes. shes quite nice but INCREDIBLY quiet. which isnt surprising. i know more about her than others, and getting her to talk is a challenge...!... shes lived in paris her whole life but she has moved into marlow (didnt understand why) and joined my school, obviously. she does NOT have facebook. shes very short (no offence) ... thats about all i know, but its actually a lot compared to the others! our class isnt very good with new people, they tend to be rather mean. but i was very friendly to her :) she sat with us at break and lunch... which the boys arent going to like when they find out tomorrow. feel very sorry for her though...

ONE HOUR LATER:
Montanna, Lucy, Emily, Holly (and natalie and daniella, but we dont like them /:) AND ME walked into town after school before rowing at 5. we always do that. we go and sit in starbucks, they go and buy sweets from sainsbury and then we walk down to the river.

we were sat down at the river today and this boy in year 11 decided he would come down so he could see Montanna. he fancies her. how sad!! he even admitted it. so they hugged and he said he wanted to kiss her. us, being the lovely friends we are decided we would try and persuade her to kiss him. it didnt work. we then asked him what he wanted to do to her, it went like this...

Lucy: hug?!
Emily: kiss?!
Lucy: MORE THAN A KISS?!
me: FINGER HER?

i clearly did not think before i said it. it kind of slipped out, by accident. he laughed and we started talking about how he said he wanted to be the first person to finger her, ew gross. lucy then suggested he did it then but he said, and i quote 'no man, i dont have to do it now' and we were like 'so your going to do it tomorrow :O?' and he was like 'no, it could be next year'. so montanna could be getting fingered next year, which would make her 14. haha, bless.

cannot believe i just wrote this on the internet. ahh well.. ;P

Sunday, 25 September 2011

a QUICK update of my weekend...

this is going to have to be quick as i have tones of homework and have had a very busy weekend so i shall write in very little detail.

FRIDAY: my friend, Kira, came round a few hours after school to get ready for the foam party. it took us a decent few hours to actually decide on an outfit. we then got dropped down there. IT WAS AMAZING. all i can say :) we met loads of people and hung with some of our other friends. definitely going to go again. we then left the party at 12 and went home and watched some episodes of the inbetweeners.

SATURDAY: Kira and i woke up shockingly early for some reason. we ate some breakfast, then got dressed and walked to the shop to buy some sweets. after buying the sweets, we then walked to the park and sat there for a while. i then walked Kira to my favourite field. its an amazing field. it overlooks the whole of high wycombe, its beautiful. i often go there on my own. pikachu then said she was going to come and meet us there. once she came we then walked back to my house and Kira got her stuff packed whilst i packed my bag for swimming. Kira got picked up and Pikachu and i walked over to the sports centre to meet Alea and the boys to go swimming. swimming was alright, quite boring. we then went and sat in the cafe and bought some fooooooood. we were going to play 7 minutes in heaven but we ran out of time.

SUNDAY (today): i woke up at 7am today. 7am! because i went rowing. Emily arrived at my door pretty early, ready for my mum to drop us both down. we picked up montanna on the way. i didnt even row. i was cox (the person who steers the boat). i actually, surprisingly, didnt crash. i was meant to be going back to my friends house, HOLLY. however, i was unsure as she had only mentioned it. my mum said to go to hollys or get a lift back with emily. by the time i waited for Holly, emily had already left. Holly then said bye to me. so i was stood there thinking 'how the hell am i going to get home? its too far to walk.' so i phoned my mum and i had to walk into the high street and wait, what felt like forever, until she came and picked me up.i then came home, ate, did some homework, watched some tele. i also made an apple crumble. the cooking apples had gone mouldy so i had to walk to the tree outside my house to pick some more. oh, and i also prepared dinner :) and now ive got to gooo....

BEFORE THE FOAM...

AFTER.


was GREAT fun!!! x

Thursday, 22 September 2011

foam foam foam FOAMMM

the foam party is tomorrow evening. and ive gotta say, im ratthhherrrr excited :D these parties are always so much fun !

EVEN better news.... ive got loads of people who im going with :) because, if you remember, i wrote a few weeks ago or so saying how everyone thought it was going to be shit. HA, yay. i have actually decided to go as a slut. but dont judge me, cause im not a slut. haha. but why not, eh? thats what i say. youll see what i mean when i add a photo tomorrowww.


IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1, i saw steve redgrave today :)
2, ive had 10 pieces of homework so far this week. and i still have tomorrow. fml.
3, i go back to spain in 4 weeks or so!! :D
4, you know what i was saying yesterday, about how i wanted to forget 'my role model'? yea, its not working. everything i do seems to lead to me telling her something. its so annoying :( i know she doesnt like me, but i cant frikin' help but talk to her! :(

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

trying to forget someone isnt as easy as it sounds...

im really trying to forget someone at the minute. my role model. this may sound incredibly stupid, but, believe me i have my explanation :) im not going to write my explanation or bitch about her, because im not like that. and im most definitely NOT going to be mean to her for not caring about me. ill just be nice and let her feel how she feels.

lets just say, ive REALLY noticed how little she cares for me and how often she ignores me? i mean, ive always know it but ive only just started realising how much. i spoke to my best friend, pikachu (aka bumcheek,) and she text me this reaalllyyy long text saying what i should say to 'my role model' and i should try and make her feel bad. she clearly does not understand. if i did that i would just end up apologising and feeling more bad than she would! i have tried it before though.

 another person i asked was the person i go to when this person isnt there. she is older than pikachu and understands more. and she first asked why i needed to talk to her, this is because i explained that i didnt want to talk to her but i couldnt help it. but i couldnt think of any reason, i mean i had the little reasons like 'shes awesome,' 'she understands me,' 'shes fun to talk to.' but they arent proper reasons! she then suggested that everytime i want to talk to her, i write down the reasons why i shouldnt. like... 'she doesnt care about what i say, its not going to effect her life' and things like that. i thought this was a really good idea :D

i have also done my research. yes, im THAT sad. and according to my research you need to keep busy so that you have no time to think about them. so i have planned my 5 day week up to 8pm each night, so i can then have a bath, to keep myself distracted from talking to 'her'.

ive just noticed this sounds like shes a right meanie... shes not! shes really nice!! but i guess its more that i know she doesnt want me to talk to her than me not wanting to talk to her. because shes 19 and going off to university this week... im the last thing she wants to be talking to! im actually trying to get her with this 'new' coach at rowing. i actually think he likes her :D hahahahaha. but im not going to tell her how i know that, shhhh. she will probably find someone at university though.

im off out now... before i get tempted to talk to her :(

IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1. i just got back from working out with this fitness trainer. shes training me to get fitter for rowing. TIRED. and she says that im not eating enough or of the right foods which is why im always hungry and feel fat. she has now told me stuff i have to eat, so its all good! shes REALLY good though, if you want her number just let me know :)
2. i had to use a really scary machine in RM today.
3. my lights in my room are FINALLY working. they havent been for months!
4. i got a B+ in my english thinggyy :D so proud of myself. this means that if the writing i did was for a gcse grade i would have got a B+, and im only in ...year 9?

Sunday, 18 September 2011

the best thing thats happened for a while :D

i have these two amazing friends: Molly and Martha. well i say they are my friends but i havent seen them for 6 or 7 years i think we worked it out as. which is incredibly bad! its not that they have forgotten about us or weve forgotten about them, its just they live hours and hours away. four hours, i think. so we havent had time to go and see them, in these 6 years.

i have honestly been trying to get in contact with them for months and months, it could even be years. ive been trying to look them up on facebook, text their mum. but because its been 6 years i couldnt remember what exactly they looked like and we had the wrong number for their mum.

BUT ANYWAY, TODAY WAS THE DAY I FINALLY SPOKE TO THEM AFTER ALL THESE YEARS! i spent hours trying to find them on facebook but it was difficult as they have obviously grown up and changed since i saw them. BUT I ACTUALLY FOUND THEM. well i found Molly first. this was because my mum used to be really good friends with theirs (thats how i know them) and said that she looked like her in her proflie picture. so i sent her a message asking if it was her and if she remembered me, surprisingly SHE DID. she then sent me a link to Martha and i added her too. so ive spent the hole of the evening talking to them, catching up!
obviously they dont look like this now. this was all those years ago :;)

AHHH, SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW :'D

Wednesday, 14 September 2011

im determined to get rid of this flub.

i seem to always get life the harder way. please dont feel as if im complaining, because im not! i dont mind getting life the harder way, its just sometimes i wish i could solve the problems.

i go to Spain (Barcelona) in roughly 6 weeks and im really trying to get fitter (lose some weight) for it. i only realised how fat i had got since the beginning of this week. since then i have not been eating AS much and have been training on the track EVERY night that i dont have netball, rowing or am out.

i felt like crying yesterday. i went over to the track, on my scooter. yes, my SCOOTER (i couldnt be bothered to get my bike down, does this explain?!) i did a few stretches. by this i mean i did 4 lunges then started training. I ONLY MANAGED TO DO ONE BLOODY LAP BEFORE I HAD TO HAVE A REST. sorry for the capitals but i really think its necessary. one lap is approximately 400 meters. that's nothing! i used to be able to run miles and miles without stopping. i am so unfit now!! so after my VERY LONG break i did another lap. again ONLY ONE. i think i was just in a lazy mood yesterday, actually. i then did one last lap as i decided i would build up my fitness slowly. i then did some sprinting. some training, eh?

today wasnt much better either. however, i am improving! i managed to run two laps without a break today. DISAPPOINTING. but this time i had a MUCH shorter break and i did another two laps again before starting my sprinting.

yesterday - 1200 meters (total)
today - 1600 meters (total)
tomorrow, can you guess? im going to go with 2000 meters. this is my way to build up my fitness. yayy...

Friday, 9 September 2011

youve gotta love them sudden bursts of random laughter.

tonight my mum and i made home made pizzas for dinner. you may be thinking, what the hell Rianne? you have no life. its a friday, why arent you out? this is not because i dont have a life... actually, to put save a lot of time lets just say i have no life. i dont row on fridays anymore, the timetable has changed so im not used to being free. so anyway, we made the dough which took forever for it to be ready! in this time my mum managed to go food shopping.

the pizza was finally cooked and my mum, dad and i were sat at the table eating like normal human beings. i then, out of nowhere, burst out laughing. this continued for about 30-40 minutes. it may not seem long, but if you think about it, laughing for that long none stop is quite a long time. as you can imagine, i had incredibly painful tummy aches by the end of this laughter. but its over now :) my parents recon its because i was drinking breeeeezzeeeeerrrr. but i definitely wasnt drunk, i swear! hahahahahaaahahaa, funny times :)x

Monday, 5 September 2011

i sometimes wish i had friends a bit more like myself.

so i saw this event on facebook and i saw some people from my school were attending. i clicked on it n
and decided i really wanted to go. its like a big party for under 16s with no alcohol, obviously.

so i then text about 8 of my friends asking if they would go with me and only two said they would!! because the others said they cant be bothered or wont be allowed or it will be shit. it may very well be shit but i would like to try it out. we always talk about going out clubbing when were older, like all the time at school. but when it actually comes to going out, none of them want to!! its so annoying :( cause i love partying, no joke. i love going to clubs, meeting new people, having a good dance. but i cant really just go on my own. and even the two friends who have said they will go are still not sure :(

 its so unfair. i always go into town to meet them when thats really what i DONT want to be doing! but i go because its what they want to do, and they never do anything what i want to do. ohh well, its not for about 4 or 5 weeks yet, im sure itll be fine:) until then, ill just keep complaining. ;D

Saturday, 3 September 2011

dont we all love early mornings? -.-

'WHATS UP B BOYS AND B GIRLS?' nah, just kidding. im not mattybraps <-- cool kid.

so to be honest with you, i havent done anything in these past two weeks. not because i havent been invited anywhere, just because im a lazy sausage. infact, yesterday i had to get up at 8 to go to the dentist and today i had to get up at 8 to go to cookham regatta to go dragon boat racing. -.-. yesterday was horrible, not gunna lie. i had to go for my filling. they were drilling in my tooth, picking, and sucking! it was horrible. it was really near the nerve aswell and i didnt want the injection so therefore he had to put a special filling in it, which is pink-.- it looks horrible!! he also did an x-ray, that bit was awesome! i have to go back in 3 months :(

and today wasnt great either. had to wait two and a half hours, in the freezing cold, before we had our first race. we lost. then we waited four hours for our next. we won. then an hour and a half for the last. we lost. it was so boring! and in this time, i managed to drop my phone in the river. so now its basically broken :(!!

what a waste of getting up early.

Sunday, 28 August 2011

ICE CREAM SODA:D

i couldnt sleep last night. AGAIN. but this wasnt because i thought there was some murderer downstairs waiting to kill me. no, this was because i heard a rat. and there is nothing i fear more than rats. i dont mind mice but rats... AHHHH!

i got into bed at like 1am, only to hear the sound of a rat scratching. i knew it was a rat because thats what my hamster used to do and rats are similar to hamsters, if you think about it. so i waited to see if i could hear it again. suprisingly, i could. i reached over to get my phone from the bedside table so i could but the torch on, worrying it could be under my bed. i searched the whole of the room, there was nothing. i then heard it again but could not work out where it was coming from. i then heard it outside my room. so i walked out of my room, onto the landing and waited for a while. i heard it again. i then tip toed into my mummys room to wake her up. that was how scared i was, i NEVER wake my mum up. she then came to investigate, by this time the rat had stopped. she then said there was nothing there and to just go to sleep. i text her saying i could hear it again. so she then came and layed in my bed, the other end. i was just texting and on my ds. the scratching noise had completley stopped. she was starting to fall asleep so i gave her a little nudge and she left. the noise was not heard again. YAY:)



IMPORTANT UPDATES:
1. i tried my first EVER ice cream soda yesterday. was amazing!
2. im looking after my next door neighbours cat because they have gone away. im actually starting to fall in love with it. i want a cat:(. i love the smell of the cat food!!:D
3. we are clearing out our attic since we are doing a car boot sale tomorrow:)

Friday, 26 August 2011

moneeyy :D

so last week i decided i would count all my money out because i had to put it all towards my new bike. it came out to £120. on monday i then decided i wanted to save all my money until im 18 so i can go away to ibiza, therefore not buying the bike. tuesday i then said i was definitley going to buy a camcorder so bumcheek and i can do some filming, forgetting about the bike and holiday. yesterday i bought the camcorder and now ive packed it all up again and am planning to take it back tomorrow. i want my money back to save. i figured a camcorder isnt really what i want.

yes, i change my mind quickly. but i have set up a new bank account where i can put money in and save. i am going to use my OTHER bank account to go shopping and stuff. i have like three bank accounts, it gets very confusing.

who knows what im going to ask for for christmas. at the minute i feel as though i dont really want anything but money:)

speaakkk sooon x

Thursday, 25 August 2011

i dont recommend putting pva glue on your face...

i should have believed the people that said 'not everything on the internet is true'. my argument of disagreement was 'why would someone go through the effort of putting it on the internet if it was not true?' well i think i prooved myself wrong yesterday.

i had seen a youtube video on how to get rid of blackheads REAL quick. i have no idea why i was watching that. it said first to put a warm flannel over the area, then to put a thin layer of pva glue over. once dried, peel off. this was meant to peel all the nasty stuff off your skin, including the blackheads.

i perswaded my mum to buy me some pva glue. after having a long debate as to why i needed it. i came up with 'i just do'. she totally bought it:) however, she did burst out laughing when i walked downstairs with pva glue on my face. i got the feeling i had put too much on! she started going on about how she could have just given me a facial, shes a beauty therapist you see.

anyway, i left it for about 10 minutes to dry. soon realising it wasnt coming off my face. it began to get incredibly intchy. so after half an hour of constant attempt of getting it off, i came to my senses and decided to try a make up wipe. yeah, it came off pretty much straight away. i was very disappointed to find it had not made my skin better, but only worse!!

ughhhhh!!!

Wednesday, 24 August 2011

here is only a BIT of my life goals list :)

1.       Fly an aeroplane of some sort.

2.       Go in a cage in the sea with the great white sharks coming right up to you.

3.       Go to new York.

4.       Fly on a plane with no friends or family.

5.       Book a holiday.

6.       Raise a family.

7.       Film a movie.

8.       Starr in a movie.

9.       Fall in love.

10.   Go away for my 18th.

11.   Climb a mountain.

12.   Win a rowing regatta.

13.   Learn to drive.

14.   Buy/rent a house/flat.

15.   Get married.

16.   Meet someone famous.

17.   Make the worlds biggest oreo.

18.   Break a world record.

19.   Get a paper round.

20.   Meet zac efron.

21.   Visit the moon (very unlikely)

22.   Ab-sail down a cliff.

23.   Travel the world.

24.   Get a job
NOTE: THESE ARE IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER.

Monday, 22 August 2011

dentists scare the teeth out of me !;D

so today was the day i had to go to the dentist for a check up. i am so scared of the dentist its unbelievable. i had been dreading the day. theres nothing wrong with my actual dentist, its the thought of having fillings or having to have drills in my mouth or have my teeth scratched or.. or... or something like that.

my brother is such a lucky sod. he NEVER brushes his teeth, im not even joking. NEVER. yet, he still never has fillings and ALWAYS has perfect teeth. i on the other hand, ALWAYS brush my teeth and im the one who always has to have fillings. its apparently because i have really sensitive teeth. not sure why. my brother has always been the luckier one, he can eat, not do ANY exercise at all and still NOT put on ANY weight. im the complete opposite. i actually sometimes wonder if he is even my brother, we have absolutely nothing in common.

for my whole life (since ive been going to the dentist) i have always had my mum sat in the room with me. however, today she was with the hygienist whislt lee and i got our teeth checked. my brother didnt even go in with me. i was very nervous at first but then he put some music on and it seemed to relax me. because we go to a private dentist, there is an incredible view in front of you whilst having your teeth checked. that also took  my mind off things.

anyway, i went for this check up today. i thought i was going to have to have a filling because i have been having really bad tooth ache. anyhoo, i have to have a filling :( suprise suprise. so unfair! however i did get told my teeth are all good appart from that, which i dont often get told. i normally have something wrong with them.

so i have to go back for my filling a week on friday. until then, i have to have an extremeley painful tooth ache. .... ouchh... :'(!!

Saturday, 20 August 2011

factfile twoo :)

16. I am HUGLEY empathetic. I may not show it but believe me I am.
17. I am known to have a wild imagination.
18. I am very, very independent.
19. Being a teenager, as you would expect, I am very grumpy.
20. I am very questionative (don’t think that’s a word) to people who interest me.
21. my favourite tv program is most definitely the inbetweeners. I have most the episodes on dvd :L.
22. I used to be a HUGE fan of Avril Lavigne. And in all honesty I still kind of am.
23. the only thing I normally get worried about in life is about the future. Im forever worrying about the bad things which could happen, when really I should think positivelyJ
24. I used to be a tomboy.
25. im the sort of friend who will stay up all night, no matter what I have planned the next day, to give you advice or comfort you.
26. im also the type of friend who will laugh at you if you fail/hurt yourself or make a fool of yourself, however I will then help you back up and check your ok.
27. I have 4 different friend groups. And as you can imagine, getting them to all get along is a very hard challenge! I have the friends I refer to as ‘nerds’, they aren’t really but they make me work hard at school. Which is a good thing I guess. I have rowing friends. I have the ‘outside school’ friends. And I also have the friends who are just there, in another group. Im the only one who is friends with all 4 groups. Yay for me -.-
28. I have a very weird sleeping pattern. I go to sleep at like 3 in the morning then sleep in until the afternoon.
29. a rumour once went round the WHOLE school, that I smoked. And im being serious, the WHOLE school.  And just to clarify, I do NOT smoke. Ive tried it a couple of times but its not a habit.
30. I hate the thought of going back to school. Although I love school.
31. I once peed on our house roof. This was not out of choice, was a dare.
32.  I don’t have a preference of sun or rain. I love all kind of weather. I do dislike it when the rain turns my hair curly but thats life.
33. my phone once went off in assembly.
34. Sober people are not welcome at parties.
35.  im the one who, if we have all been out late and crash down at someones house, will just sleep on the floor.
36. I once got questioned by the police for looking drunk. The funny thing was that I actually wasn’t drunk! Just very hyper on red bull!!

i guess all parties are classed as good if there is food.

parties, as most experienced people would know, never seem to go to plan. the ideal party, for me, would be a party with lots of people, alcohol and a dance floor. sadly being the age my friends and i are, we are not allowed to attend one of these parties, legally at least. of course we have all attended a few and experienced the older 18 year olds getting drunk out of their mind - always funny to watch! you see, im one of the ones who at a party, you would find dancing... most probably with a drink in my hand (meaning coke, of course... ;D!)

well it was emilys party last night. obviously it wasnt MY ideal party. infact, it was the complete opposite. only six people, no alcohol and no dance floor. however, there was food. therefore i was partly satisfied. the 'party' was an eat out at my favourite restaurant, frankie & bennys, and then a sleepover at emilys. im going to regret saying this but it actually wasnt as bad as it may sound. we all managed to have a good laugh at frankie & bennys. managing to burn our tongues by licking someones dick (obviously it only burnt my tongue, because im the lucky one. and obviously it wasnt an actual dick.)

we then went back to emilys and watched horrors. a nightmare on elm street, saw 6, and the final destination are just a few examples. i love horrors, i really do. so sadly these films were a little disappointing for me. i didnt find them very scary at all! but i really quite like a nightmare on elm street:) we then played dares until silly, silly times in the morning. fortunately im not allowed to say anything that happened it dares.

we ended up getting into bed at 6ish. therefore we probably didnt go to sleep until about 7am! therefore i was not very appreciative when emilys dog came in and woke us up at 9am. -.-! i actually didnt feel overly tired when we woke up, infact none of us did. whilst everyone was getting changed... well, i wasnt. i cant even recall what i was doing. so i left her house, in my pyjamas. luckily i didnt see anyone. i then have spent the rest of the day watching episodes and episodes of the inbetweeners. so funny to see how much bad luck they have.

i also went and saw the inbetweeners movie yesterday with emily. i was very suprised we actually got in, seeing as its a 15. but we did so i cant complain:)


'1,2 freddies coming for you. 3,4 better lock your door. 5,6 grab your crucifix. 7,8 gotta stay up late. 9,10 never sleep again.' (a nightmare on elm street) awesome film ! 

Thursday, 18 August 2011

aye aye, i see a hottie.

so i hadnt been swimming for weeks, maybe even months. there is no reason for this, i just never really got any time to go(although i live right next to the sports centre.) so i went yesterday. on my own. it was very fun, as you can imagine. i was in there for about 40 minutes before i decided this creepy girl had been watching my every move, therefore i exited very calmly. she looked about 15/16, maybe even older. im not going to joke, she just looked about me while i did my lengths. i did about 8-12 lengths and then had a 1 minute break then went again. she still continued to look at me. she wasnt even swimming! she was in the pool, just in the corner. she even looked at me in the shower, so i decided i would wash my hair at home. i casually left, trying ever so hard to not rasie my middle finger.

my friend, Alea (spud) stayed the night last night. i hadnt seen her since we broke up from school. we spent the whole night watching films. high school musical, is an example. we sang along, because were cool.

spud then wanted to go swimming today. we both got woken up at about 9ish from a strange noise heard outside. we then went and watched tele whilst we ate our toast. we got changed earlier than we had planned. meaning we had arrived at the sports centre at 11.10 ish. the earliest ive ever been swimming!

well, what can i say. there were sooo many hot boys. the first one we spotted looked about 14/15, we were going to go and say hey until we realised he was with his family. that was a bit of a bummer. the second guy was actually a lifeguard. he had such cute curly hair. he looked about 15/16. i was so tempted to go and meet him!! but spud said it was a bad idea. instead we just followed him around and constantly looked at him. he looked a little like harry from one direction. there was this other boy who we saw. he looked pretty fit from a distance but close up his nose was too big, we decided. he was also a lifeguard. there was a third lifeguard who was also looking very hot. but we were more interested in 'harry'. yes, we began calling him harry because he had hair just like the guy of one direction!

we decided we wanted to get 'harry's number. here are some of the plans we came with...

plan A: try and get him to come over. this failed, epicly.

plan B: pretend to drown, he would then have to come and rescue us. this sounded good until we realised we werent prepared to possibly die trying to get him.

plan C: go and ask him a pool related question. we didnt even try this as soon after thinking of it realised he would think we were incredibly dumb.

plan D: do some hand signals to get him to meet us outside after his shift. this also failed.

none of these plans sadly worked. we did, however, bump into him in the cafe. but by this point spud's mum and sisters were with us so we decided it would be hugly inappropriate to talk to strangers.

so i just got home from swimming. well i say 'just' but really i got home a few hours ago. it was tipping it down! i got so wet -.-. oh the joys of living in england. and ive have been freezing for these last few hours. ive put a jumper on now and im starting to feel a little warmer. and ive just remembered its Emilyss party tomorrow and i havent got her anything, yet.... eeepppppp

Tuesday, 16 August 2011

heres a little factfile... :)


1.       I have a freckle on my right thumb.

2.   I prefer baths to showers. No question about it. However baths and I just never seem to get along very well. I always over fill them, by accident. I never have enough room left in the bath to put any cold in. Therefore I have to sit in a boiling hot bath, this leads to very stressful headaches.  I also find it very weird and awkward how you’re sat in a bath. Naked. With all the bathroom objects staring at you.  Like seriously. Where’s the privacy?

3.       I’m addicted to facebook. Not even joking.

4.       I like peas and I like sweet corn but when they’re mixed together I won’t eat them.

5.       If I’m out, I always eat the food I’m given, even if I don’t like it. Because I’m delightfully polite like thatJ except if its mushrooms which I’ve been asked to eat.  That’s a step WAY too far. Hate mushrooms.

6.       I’m dyslexic. However I don’t tell many people, I just let them think I’m dumb.

7.       I am very well known for being a pyromaniac. This has a few long and winded stories behind it, which I’m not planning to share.

8.       I don’t eat breakfast. Or sometimes not even lunch or dinner. Not like in one day. I would have one meal a day, included with lots of snacks. Just because I’ve got to the age where I have to make it myself. No thanks. I would rather starve.

9.       I am actually, believe it or not, a very good girl at school. I wouldn’t say I’m a nerd, however. I’m definitely not clever enough to be classes as a nerd. But I just pretend I am at school.  I never used to be like this, year 7 and below I mean. But seeing as I’m friends with a load of nerds I have taken it into consideration that school has a huge affect on my future.

10.   I havent got a huge idea as to what I want to do for a job when im older. Now ive entered into the teens I don’t get away with the excuse ‘im going to marry someone rich’ because in reality, I cant see that happening. i do know i would like a job which includes photography and travelling. I keep changing my mind so ive come to a conclusion to just tell people ‘I don’t know’. Much easier.

11.   I am very impatient. Please note.

12.   None of my relationships EVER work out. So ive come to the decision of giving up. Not forever, just for a few years until im more mature, the boy is too and it will hopefully last.

13.   I love harry potter, all the films. My favourite is probably the deathly hollows part two. Thats just incredible.

14.   I really wish I could drive. i cycle, everywhere. Not cool.

15.   My room is always a mess. I think there are some sorts of creatures in my bedroom. They wait. Right until ive just tidied my room. Then they just go and make a complete mess. Making me give up on trying tidying it again. So not my fault.

16.   If there is no conversation, I am normally the one who attempts to get everyone talking. Very awkward. Youve been warned.

17.   I prefer the dark to light. I always sleep in the dark because then that way I cant see anything which will scare me or distract me from sleeping. I often go to sleep at silly times in the mornings, even on school nights, so I need all the sleep I can get once im in bed.  Also when im home alone I will sit in the house, with all the lights off. But this is mainly because I cant be bothered to turn them on.

this is longer than i had planned, oops.